Obsessed

Screams Of Pain.

Song for this chapter: War of Hearts by Ruelle.

Trigger warning- please do not read if you are easily triggered.
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Screams of Pain...

When I fell he was always there to pick me up again.
When I cried he was always there to wipe my tears.
Then, all of a sudden, he wasn't anymore.
I never loved anyone as much as I loved him.
Maybe that's the reason he left, I was depending on him too much.
Never really had life of my own.
When something I loved came into my life I would hold on and never want to let go.
Because I knew...I just knew, that one day that one thing I loved would leave me.

One thing that would never leave was books. Fictional characters. Bands. Well band members wouldn't leave me because they don't know I exist.
I don't need them to know that I exist.
Their music saved my life.
And that's enough for me.
But sadly I just couldn't keep my head above the water.

But I wasn't giving up just yet.
I wasn't letting go.
This was the one thing keeping me alive and if I let go..
Then I knew that it would mean giving up.
I didn't want to give up, that meant losing and that was one thing I was bad at.

Losing.

I've let too many people down over my lifetime and I refuse to let anyone else down.
But did it mean that I had to lose to keep him?
Is that the way life works?

If it is then I didn't want to play that game. I was tired of being played.
All the lies.
The promises.

Like when I was little, playing hide and seek.
But this time the person I was playing with got bored before they found me.
Was I waiting for someone who wasn't coming?

The time for waiting was over.
The only way I'll ever be found was to find myself.

A/N

I'm getting my hair cut later so I thought I'd kill some time editing.

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Edited- 22/06/16