Trust // xBayani AU // ON HOLD

Chapter 12

Jordan.

I bit my lip as I laid on the couch. It was about an hour after Logan and Will had went to bed and I couldn't stop thinking about the moment in Will's room.

Why did that happen? I'm happy with Sasha! (oh god look who it is.)

I sighed and ran my hands over my face. Why was I so fucking confused right now? Logan was Will's sister so I already knew he'd be extremely pissed at me if I told him about my confusion at the moment and I obviously cant talk to Logan or Sasha about it either. AAARGh this is so confusing.

I stayed silent, the only sound being my breathing that was steady and repetitive. Like my life. I had been with Sasha for just over four months now and ever since then I've sorta calmed down. I barely ever hang out with Ryan and Maclean, I barely ever record or post and my days are mostly filled with her.

Now, don't get me wrong, I really like Sasha it's just sometimes she can be a little annoying or boring. She goes to college and studies History because she wants to be a History teacher and she likes to talk about what she learns.

A lot.

As soon as she arrives home she always likes to tell me what she learned or how she did on a test or something and sometimes I think shes my child. Like she's my daughter and she's expecting praise or candy if she got an A on a test. Its Ridiculous.

But at the same time, she's amazing. She can be really funny and has a great body... if you know what I mean... but that's not all i'm interested in. Sure, she can make me laugh a few times a week but I want that constant feeling, that feeling that i'm really falling for her.

I sighed and rubbed my hands over my face again and picked up my phone from the floor, unlocking it and clicking on twitter, scrolling through some of my mentions before deciding to tweet about it.

Jordan @xBayani

UuUugh im confused

and that's all I was going to tweet.

The viewers can be a little harsh when they reply to my tweets and I didn't want to go spilling out my entire problem to them for two reasons. 

One) They'd over-react. A lot

Two) Will would be informed on the situation.

and I really don't want that second one to happen.

I sighed slightly, thinking about my problem. I don't even know why it was such a problem... but almost kissing Logan made me question my relationship with Sasha. If I liked Sasha so much, why did I try to kiss Logan?

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A/N

IDK MAN WHY DID YOU

But JoRDAn is so CUte

tbh this is v short and im v sorry

<3

-laura