Its taking over.

Taking Over

It's taking over and I didn't realize it. Well I did, but I never knew how much. Maybe when all those blackouts happened, I should had told someone, especially my Mom. But, how was I suppose to know, that a part of MYSELF that is not even remotely human is starting to take host of my body. This fox, the thunder kitsune that was always apart of me, is now demanding for independence. It wants out, it wants to lose control. Cause trickery and start destruction that will make it satisfied with pleasure. I don't know what to do. This is me, this is me, this is me, this...is...me? But at the same time it's not at all. I wish we could kill it like we did with VoidStiles but we can't because Stiles was possessed, I am not. I AM A KITSUNE. We can't kill a huge part of me, even though this side to me is nothing like my personality is at all. I am the messenger of death, the irony of it all. Who would had thought. Me, klutzey Kira, awkward Kira and most of all Kira with a kind heart. This is me, but I'm also really good with a sword or maybe the it's the kitsune that is.

I remember the first time it came out. When it was visble to the world. When Lydia saw it with her human eyes and the fire was reflecting her eyes and it looked like she was seeing something was beautifully scary. I felt in control but I wasn't. I felt things that I never even dreamed of thinking. To kill. To destroy. To slice till the blood was caked on me. It was like feeling dark thoughts of a demon and it pleading me to commit sins. And so I did. I sliced Tracy tail off and I WANTED TO DO MORE. I WANTED TO RAM MY SWORD IN HER STOMACH TILL HER INSIDES WERE OUT ON THE FLOOR AND SHE WAS NOTHING BUT HOLLOW INSIDE. But it was too much power, it took too much out of me. And so it went away and all that was left was hands of a blossoming killer. They weren't stain with blood but I would imangie that one day, they would be.