Dear diary by susykes

Betrayed

Dear diary,
My name is Mary, but everyone calls me ary! 4 years ago, mum bought this book and I have not touched it. Today, I'm gonna write my thoughts down, more like splash my ink with anger on this page. So here I go....

Eyes are important like someone once said 'eyes are the window to your soul'. If that was the truth then why do people still look into the eyes and lie, why do they look into the eyes and betray or cheat on each other? To their family, lover, friends and even strangers. Do they not feel the guilt? How dare they say such a lie and that too while looking through the window of the soul. I am flabbergasted.

And there's also a bright side to this topic, when u communicate with your eyes. You feel connected with that person just by a glance. You see that guy/girl on the street, and one look is enough to make your heart thump loudly against your chest. You feel the whole zoo running around in your stomach and your heart wants to leap out of your rib cage. You feel the blood rush up to your cheeks and you blush in crimson red colour. You want to fly into his arms but you stop yourself. Was that love at first sight? You then feel the buzz every time you look at him, it's the same way that you feel when you saw him the first time. And all this happen with one glance through the other person's window of his soul.

Oh how powerful you are, eyes.

Now, you ask, so do I think that eyes are the window to the soul?
maybe not.
Why? Because no matter how much you beg the person, how much you scream or how much you bore your eyes into his and give him intense gaze throughout, he will never stay nor will he feel pity for you. He is cruel. He left you despite you looking through his soul and telling him to help you. 5 months ago, did he not look into your eyes and said he loved you? So Where did she go wrong? Didn't you said eyes are the window of the soul? And she did look into his soul, and so did he - 5 months ago and that time she thought she saw love in his eyes but she was wrong. And this time what did she see? She only saw an icy cold eyes that held no feeling staring back at her.
He tried to understand you, maybe he tried. But he didn't grasps the pain that you were feeling. After all we all suffer in different fashion.

But I'll tell you something & it might help.

You don't need anyone for strength. No one. You only need yourself.