Is this love? // Bradley will Simpson fanfic//

Chapter 20

"What is it jasmin" i urged her to tell me.
"I.. I erm" she stuttered. I got impatient with her and shouted by accident.
"Jasmin what to you want to tell me!?"  I raised my voice.
"I kissed james okay!?" She yelled back and broke down crying. My anger instantly washed away as i cradled her poor, weaping body.
"Oh jas" i sighed. she has a boyfriend! What is she doing!? Jasmin has never been the girl to cheet... Or even dream of it for that matter.

"Im a horrible person tasha! I love harry! I really really do! I dont know why i did it... It just fell right" she managed to speak through her harsh sobbing state. It was barley audible through the tears and sniffles but i understood her.
"You're not a horrible person, ok? Everybody makes mistakes" i hugged her and stroked her soft brown hair, "so, what are you going to do?" I asked, slightly more sternly this time. She ripped her hands from her face and looked up at me with her bloodshot eyes.
"What?"
"Are you going to tell him? Or any of the other lads for that matter"
"I.. I dont know. What would you do?"
"It depends on what my motive was for doing it..." I began thinking hard. What would i do?
"What do you mean" she asked me.
"Well, if i did it, not because i wanted to cheat purposely, but if it just happened naturally and felt right... I'd defiantly question my current relationship" i paused, "and if thats the case... I wouldn't tell harry but im sure my feelings would have changed towards him"
"Tasha... It felt so right, it was like a kiss from a film or how your tiny 9 year old self pictures your first kiss in their head!! I felt something that i never felt when i first kissed harry and its making me curious!"

"So you like james?" I asked, softly so that she felt welcome enough to tell me.
"I do tash, i love harry though?"
"Well clearly you dont love him as much as you thought you did..." After realising how harshly that came across i looked at her to see her reaction and she had her eyebrows furrowed looking back at me... Oops.
"What im trying to say is, if you loved harry as deadly and endlessly as you think. You would not feel this way about james...  Love finds you when its right, you cant look for love its self"

We sat there in silence, both deep in thought. I dont think i could ever do that to brad... Purely because im seriously blind to every other boys perfections now i have brad, its not even worth comparing all those other boys to him.

"Tasha?" she finally spoke.
"Yeah jas?" I answered.
"Say, i wanted to try things out with james... But i didn't want to lose harry... What would that make me?" She asked, seriously.
"Honestly?"
"Yeahh"
"Selfish. You cant keep harry waiting as a back up plan if james doesn't work out." I sighed, both sympathetically and boldly.

"You're right... I think i want to be single again?" She questioned herself...

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A/N
Hey! I'm updating whilst in on holiday in Greece! I have written a few chapter already and il be updating tomorrow too. Hope you enjoy x