Teach Me How to Love Again (Sequel to Dirty Little Secret)

Chapter 6: Living on Their Last Hope (With Commentary)

*~(The title of this chapter is from The State of Dreaming by Marina and the Diamonds.)~*

(This is happening at the same time as the last chapter, just in a different place, obviously.)

Well this title was quite a missed opportunity to use another Paramore song. THEY LITERALLY HAVE A SONG CALLED LAST HOPE. Failed opportunity, 2021 M. (Yes I still adore Marina as well)

*~Mikey's P.O.V.~*

"I can't believe she's really fucking doing this!" Gerard shouted.

Eliza was really going through with her plan to not let Gerard see his son unless he agreed to be with her. Gerard and I had both thought she'd end up backing out of this. MISS ELIZA CONSENT IS IMPORTANT

Suddenly, realization hit me.

"Gerard, you said you used a condom when you had sex with Eliza, right?" I asked. Condoms break, bestie. Trust me, I know and I LEARNED THAT I'M MILDLY ALLERGIC TO PLAN B. Practice safe sex, besties! 

"Duh. I didn't plan on getting Satan herself pregnant," he sighed. Diversity win! Satan's a woman!

"What if he's not your son? What if Eliza did this to frame you or some shit? You know she's just crazy enough to do that." I don't think the fact that he used a condom is enough to base this theory on because, as I said, they break but I'm with you so far. 

"I bet he's really my son. Why would Eliza lie about that? What would she have to gain from that?" I mean she's been trying to force you into a relationship for a while, use your head here bud

"What if she just said it's your son so she could blackmail you into being in a relationship with her? Notice how she's threatening to not let you see your son if you don't stay with her." DUH

"Do you really think there's a chance it's not mine?" Gerard asked happily. "That would be so great! Then maybe I could get Sky back!"

"You still cheated on her. I'm not so sure you'd get her back," I admitted. He looked hurt, but sometimes I had to be harsh with him, because it was the only way he'd listen. FINALLY SOMEONE SAYS IT

"Oh... Y-you're right," he said timidly. "I'm an idiot. I cheated on the perfect girl who I loved with a girl I can't stand. I'm a fucking loser." Yes you are! <3 

"Don't think like that, Gerard." NO HEAR HIM OUT MIKEY HE'S RIGHT

"It's true! You know it too! You know I'm a fucking loser!" YES!! AND I KNOW IT TOO!! 

"Everybody makes sometimes, Gerard. It's okay," I sighed. It's hard to comfort him when you agree with him. He is an idiot for cheating on a girl who loved him so much. She has trust issues now. She hides it well, but I can tell. He gave her trust issues. She has trouble trusting people, and it's all his fault. THIS PARAGRAPH IS SO REDUNDANT I'M LAUGHING SO HARD IT'S GIVING "The poison. The poison for Kuzco. The poison chosen especially to kill Kuzco. Kuzco's poison" HAHAHAHA

"Don't give me that bullshit! Yeah, everybody makes mistakes, but none that are as big as cheating on the only woman you love! Would you cheat on Kristin?" LET THE MAN SPEAK MIKEY HE'S RIGHT

"No way, dude. I would never cheat on Kristin. She's my world!" 

"Exactly! Sky was my world too, but I still fucking cheated on her!" 

I had no comeback for that, because he was right again. He did make a huge mistake because he was being stupid. ITS TRUE!!!

I changed the subject. "You should try and get some rest. You have to teach tomorrow," I reminded him. He groaned, but seemed to agree.

I set up my sleeping area on the floor of his bedroom. I did this at least once a week, so I could keep an eye on him. "sleeping area" did... did I forget the word bed? or sleeping bag? 

"I'm gonna ask Eliza to take a paternity test," Gerard said after some silence.

"You do that, Gerard. I thought I told you to get some rest," I chuckled.

"Fine. Goodnight, Mikey," he sighed.

"Night, Gerard."

*~*~*~*

The next morning, I had to make sure Gerard got ready okay and everything. Staying at his house was very similar to babysitting a five-year-old. I had to make sure he finished his breakfast, and showered, and brushed his teeth. If he didn't do one of these things, I'd send him back upstairs to do it.

Today he seemed to be in a better mood though. He must really have some hope that Eliza's baby isn't his. well he still fucked her so does it really matter?? nah

I didn't mean to give him false hope about Sky. All I meant to do was share my suspicions about Eliza with him.

But if false hope is what it takes to keep him alive, I'm not going to bring him back down to earth. DO IT I WANT HIM TO DIE