I got up out my bed and through on a pair of boots. I was already wearing a pair of sweats and a tank top. I slipped on my Of Mice&Men oversized sweater and pulled my hair up in a sloppy pony tail. I looked in the mirror wiping any access makeup that had smeared under my eyes. My Boyfriend of two years broke up with me an Hour ago. He was a fag anyway. I mean what kind of name is Nathaniel? A Gay One! I grabbed my phone, grateful I picked it back up after throwing it at Him and for it not cracking. Go IPhone 5! Opening my dresser and grabbing the bottle of tylenol and swallowing four. I always liked the feeling of pills going down my throat. I, Copeland Carison Cade was not going to be sad. No I pulled out a bottle of Jack Daniels and my purse and slipped everything I would need for tonight. I stopped and looked in my vanity. Not that bad, I was lightly tanned. The color of Walnuts. Dark Black hair, and Vibrant Green eyes. I Could see the splatter of freckles across my nose. 5"4 and 159 lbs. I was hideous, to myself at least. Everyone said how beautiful I am. Bullshit.
I started driving. The Voice continued to taunt me. 'Fatty, Dumb Whore, Kill Yourself.' I started screaming, to the naked eye I looked crazy. I know I did, but if you dug a little deeper you would of been able to tell it wasn't insanity l, it was pain. And depression, anxiety, an attention seeker running from her passion. I didn't stop driving either until I was outside my only (if you call it) 'friend'. Well I had a crush on her. I wasn't lesbian or Bi. Far from it actually but there was something about her that made the world seem okay.
"Kendall!" I screamed.
"Copey? What are you doing?" she said jumping down from her window.
"Can we go on a Adventure?" I asked.
"Copeland, sure. Just let me get my stuff." She climbed back in and started throwing bags out. And such.
This wasn't the first time I had 'left' reality with Kendall.
As soon as she was in the car she started asking questions. After I told her she grabbed my Jack Daniels opened it for me and handed it over."Turn up the radio will you?" I slurred from the backseat. I was alwats such a light weight. She hooked up my IPhone and turned on my Playlist. Low by Sleeping with sirens started playing. And I cried, I cried like a little bitch. I Hated myself and all I wanted was to die. But I Had Kendall Marie Scof. And She was all I needed.
