"Oh , I can't sleep , having a bad mood makes you upset, stupid thoughts reach you to the empty results" My name is Mary , I'm 22 years old , student at a petty college.
It is Friday , and I started writing my story at midnight , the time is 1:03 A.m laying directly to the completed moon .
It is so hard to sleep while you are having an annoying sister .
Today was such a cool day, that cause I met my friends , we didn't stop talking about anything, commenting about others' relationship , what was the most important part that I met my stupid boyfriend , we are in relationship since three years but as what people said " the beauty comes at the beginning" , I don't have that feelings of being a good girl with him or I don't feel that emotional feelings . stupidly ,I'm really trying to force myself to be honest and tell him about this cold feeling, and I thought so far , if I told him that would be worst decision ever, or I'll hurt him. I should have to think ratoinaly.
At this moment, I feel lost and I think over and over of trivial things , I'm afraid of being alone again , old memories keep effecting on my mind , as I feel like being in unending maze , Ouch! That is really suck .
Today is Sunday, exactly 7:32 Am ; the sky is clear,there is some air breeze .
I just keep listening to one of my favorite song "mirror" for lil Wayne . Its words fits my temper , being mystery or making a distance from the people.
Today is Monday and I got a news about finding a good job for English courses , I'm just waiting for the agreement wishing not be rejected cause I'll be sad and annoyed of losing this chance , I think it would be great to have this job or getting busy .
A new day ! Emmm I'm so depressed ; by the way, I'm rejected .
I don't feel of my body, I really hate him ; it's God's curse to be hated by me ,
