My heartbroken Angel (lesbain)

"Jessie, Jessie" Victoria tried to get my attention."Are you even listening to me?"She wined finally out of my day dream. "Yea" i said. "So what was i talking about?" she asked curiously wondering if i really was paying attention. "Err school?" Victoria adjusted her posture to let me know i was wrong "Okay okay i was out of it, i admit it" i replied honestly. Victoria started again " You cant tell anyone..." I nodded and began daydreaming again. Thinking about this new girl that moved next door to me, she confused me because it was like she was trying to flirt with me. I exited my daydream with a warm hand on mine, it was Victoria. " Jessie, I am bisexual." "What? You cant be, are you serious?" Victoria nodded at my question."I have something else to tell you" Please don't be i love you i thought to myself. "I...i think i love you" Victoria said while cracking a weak smile trying to enlighten the mood.My jaw dropped slightly thinking of all the things we had been through together. When we were younger she would always hug and kiss me on the cheek for no apparent reason but we were best friends so i didn't think anything of it. Being that i had already told her that i was lesbian years back things started to get a little weird. "How could you love me?" i asked still confused by the subject. "I....I don't know" she replied starting to get a bit confused by my reaction. We sat there in silence for minutes both of us trying to figure out what the hell just happened. She seemed to regain understanding before i did and began walking closer to me with her arms out to hug me. When her fingers touched my arm i had regained my understanding and backed up quickly. i saw the pain in her eyes and tears starting to form when she realised i didn't feel the same.I walked over to Victoria and rubbed her arm in comfort. "Please don't cry" i pleaded, then gave her a hug. I  felt her grasp tighten as i tried to pull away. "Don't" I said trying not to cry, but it was too late i felt her cold finger wiping away the one single tear that fell from my face.She pulled backed and forced a smile. I tried to smile back but i cried harder and then unknowingly pressed myself against her chest. Her breathing increased once i did and she and she pulled me closer and held me tighter. why are you doing this to yourself Jessie? Stop hugging her and go away. I told myself once i realised what was happening. Victoria loosened her grip and kissed my forehead. "Please forgive me" she whispered in my ear. For what i thought, but then she kissed me, her lips trying to force mine with hers. I tried to push her away, but my lips started to move with hers. Stop dammit i told myself trying to control my lips. She pulled out of the kiss and i slapped her face. "Ow what was that for?" she asked me as if she hadn't done anything wrong. "You freaking kissed me!" i replied angrily. "You kissed me back, and you're still holding me." she replied with some irritation in her voice. I looked down at my arms and they were still held tightly around her waist. I tried to let go but i didn't want to, I started to move closer as if i was going to kiss her. What are you doing? Stop this  nonsense you're giving her the wrong impression. I argued with myself. I felt her smile as our lips touched again as saying 'I win'. She pulled away again "Err what was that?" she asked curiously but not really caring for an answer. " I...I don't know I guess I have feelings for you too. Please forgive me...." She put her finger on my lips, and smiled as she saw me bite my lip. "Do you have any feelings for me that could make you more than a friend?" She asked as she grabbed my hands. "Err I dunno" I looked at her trying to find the answers. "Its getting late, I should head home" she said looking a little disappointed but forcing a smile. She got up off my bed letting my hands flow through hers. "Victoria" she turned around and said "whats up". I jumped off my bed and went to her, I wrapped my arms around her neck. I looked in her arms then gave her a kiss on the cheek. "See you tomorrow" I said a little happy. "See you" she managed to get out while turning red from the kiss. I giggle and waved goodbye. When she left I layed on my bed smiling thinking of her. I memorized her face , her hazel eyes that melt you when you look at them. Her perfect lips so red and kissable. Her many dimples, her smile, and her laugh. What's happening to me, am i really falling in love with my best friend since birth. I was so confused.