Open wounds

New beginnings

Chapter 11

New beginnings

**Six years later**

I ran threw the front door slamming it shut as I ran to my room slamming and locking the door behind me. I flew face first on my bed crying with everything I had.

(Worthless, stupid, Whore, fag!!)

Is all I could think to myself. I cried harder and harder I almost threw up....Before I knew it I was racing to the trash can and threw up everything I had put inside me today. I wiped my face sniffing as I stood up, I looked in the mirror to find a pale girl with a busted lip and swollen black and blue eye. I stared and stared no I didn't stop I couldn't I was lost I was empty inside then I thought..

(My mother should of just killed me while she had the chance.)

More tears came down my face.

"Im only in 6th grade I'm only 12 years old I didn't even do anything wrong why do people hate me so bad"

I mumbled under my breath with tears in my eyes. I couldn't take it I've had enough.

Before I knew it I found myself punching the mirror and watching it shatter into 1000 little pieces. I backed up towards the wall and slid down as I held my hand and cried. I sat there for a while crying as I began to think.

I took a deep breath as I began to slowly get up. I knew I had to do something for my face or my dad would have questions, questions I did NOT want to answer...

I grabbed my face makeup and began to cover my eye I squealed in pain trying not to cry. I then looked at myself threw the broke mirror wondering what I've become who I am why I'm even here?

*Knock knock*

"Hunny are you in there?!"...

"Hunny? Come on sweaty open up"

I heard my dad say realizing he's home from work.. I quickly covered my hand and opened the door.

"I was wondering wh-"

My dad started then stopped.

"Oh my God Emily what did you do what happened?!?"

My dad said conserned.

"N- nothing I was brushing some knots out of my hair when I lost control of the brush and it swung and hit the mirror"

I lied trying to push my hand down into my pocket as I tried in all my power to keep from crying in pain.

"Oh well..Alright Hunny are you hurt?"

"No I'm fine dad"

I lied again.

"Alright well clean up the mess and be more careful next time please Hunny...What do you want for dinner??"

"Uh its on you tonight"

I said with a little smile.

"Alright Hunny ill be back soon please be careful lock the door let no one in got it?!"

"Yes dad I understand"

"Alright Em be good"

He said kissing my head before walking off.

I began cleaning the mess as I finished I made my way to my bedroom. I laid on my bed and snuggled with my pillow. I didn't really know what to think, well I did I just didn't wanna.

***30 minutes later***

*Knock knock*

"Hunny?? ...Em you okay? I got dinner ready come eat."

I heard my dad say threw the door as I got up walking to my door to finding him there.

"Come on!"

He said cheerful walking to the table. That's how my dad always was he thought the same of me as I do him little did he know I fight every second to make it threw another day.

"Okay I got you favorite! Pinnapple pizza!"

He said with the biggest smile on his face. Man did I love my dad.

"Mh yummm Thanks dad ..but I told you it was your pick."

I told him.

"Well yeah but I wanted to make my babygirl happy"

He said still smiling. I smiled.

"Well let's eat then."

I lied right threw my teeth. I took a bite or too before tossing it back in the box without my dad looking.

"I'm tired I'm gonna go to bed"

I said getting up.

"But its only 7:08pm"

"Long day at school"

I explained.

"Oh alright then Hunny Goodnight Em."

He said hugging me with a kiss on the head.

I gave him a kiss back as I headed to my room. I landed face first on the bed and cried myself to sleep.