For The Better

Darius

I sat on my bed thinking about what I was going to do next. I liked having my own place. It would be fucked up to have to move back in with my mom. Maybe she can loan the money out to me until I get paid. I laid back in the bed and ran my hand down my face. There is no sense in me sitting around moping so I called Pacman and told him I was coming over. Pacman said he was rolling up. That's good because I need something to take my mind off of this shit. I went to take a shower.

I got to Pacman's house about 30 minutes later. When I pulled up in the driveway Pacman was already sitting on the front porch smoking. I walked up to him and he dapped me up. He handed me the blunt and went to the back of the house to get a patio chair.  

When he came back I sat down and he asked me what was up. I just sighed and he knew I didn't want to talk about it but he wasn't that type of friend. "I asked you what's up. What's going on? Something with Patience?" I just smoked the blunt and stared at the ants on the ground. "I hit Leslie & her head was so good i went to sleep & i think that hoe stole my rent money." I said. Pacman shook his head before talking. "Damn Darius, I told you about this shit. Now what you gone do? No fuck you, it ain't even about you anymore. You got a family. What's Patience gone do? You want me to get one of my homegirls to beat Leslie ass though?" Pacman walked in the house to go and get some cups because he had some liquor too. He filled my cup to the rim and I finished that in no time. I kept fixing more cups. Pacman told me to slow down but it was like liquor was my therapy. I couldn't stop. Next thing I knew I was on the ground singing songs.

I called Diana. She answered on the first ring. "Di.. Dian.. Diana where...where the fuck you at? You need to come home right now." Diana sighed and said "Darius bye. I don't have time for this." She hung up in my face and I called back. 

"Bitch, don't.. don't do that. Where my son at?" I said. I was so drunk that i didn't even know I had a daughter. The last thing i remember was laying on the ground talking to ants.

When I woke up the next morning I was in my bed. Diana nor Patience was in my bed. I yelled for Diana but she didn't answer. I went to the living room and she was sitting on the couch staring at the wall. I came and sat next to her and tried to kiss her. She mushed my head and said "Darius what the fuck happened to the money? I need an explanation." I shrugged my shoulders. Diana was getting annoyed with me so she grabbed my ears like I was a child and twisted it. "Tell me what happened now Darius. I already know about Leslie, Darius. I just want to hear it from the horse's mouth or in your case the dog's mouth. You're so damn dumb you don't know shit. Eww you get on my damn nerves. You got little hoes running up in here taking our damn money. You have to do better. I paid the rent Darius. I don't want to see your face no more. Ugh." Diana got up and walked out of the house. Patience started whining when she heard the door slam. Diana was pissing me off. I made one damn mistake and now her ass is acting all high & mighty like she's the responsible parent. Fuck her. I grabbed my daughter and took her to bed with me.

I laid in the bed telling Patience all of my problems like she could talk back. I called my moms and she told me to come over. I never really went to my mom's place because her man lives with her and he's cool so I don't want to be popping up unexpected at their house. I put my sleepy head in her carseat and took her in the bathroom with me.

As soon as I got Patience settled, I got undressed and hopped in the shower. While I was in the shower all I did was think about Diana. I'm so tired of this going back and forth with her. When I graduate I may just get full custody of Patience and move to an unknown town and start all over. I may just lift a weight off of Diana's selfish shoulders. I finished washing myself up and cut the water off. When I cut the water off I just stood there still lost in my thoughts.

I got out of the shower and I wrapped a towel around me. I grabbed Patience's car seat and walked to the hall closet to get her tub. Patience started yawning and I seen her eyes open. It always scared me when her eyes opened, I have the slightest idea of why. Patience started to whine and I sat her carseat on the ground, picked her up and held her. "Daddy's here now. I got you." I said softly. Patience stopped whining and her eyes closed. Patience and I had this bond. I think she knows that she's gonna always have her daddy. I love my daughter more than anything. If anyone ever threatened my life over Patience they'd have to kill me. I will die for her in an instant. I went and got dressed.

I filled Patience's small tub with water and bathed her. She hated bath time. She always smiled when she got a bubble on her hands though.

After I was done bathing Patience I dressed her and put one of those small headbands on her head because I don't know what to do when it comes to baby's hair. I put Patience back in her carseat and sat it by the door. I went to her room to grab her diaper bag and grab my phone and wallet.

I checked my phone and there was a missed call from my mom and 2 text messages. One from my mom telling me that she was keeping Patience tonight and a text from Gabrielle asking if I was busy today. I texted my mom back "ok" and Gabrielle back "nun ima chill what you got going?" I cut all the lights off and walked out the door with Patience's car seat in one hand and her bag in the other hand. I walked to my car and put Patience in safely and threw her stuff in the back seat. I walked to my side and got in. I started the car and rolled down my window. "Hey Darius" I heard a female voice yell. I looked over and it was this girl named Shun. She's a dyke. She's cool but she's more of a man than me. I drove my car by where she was standing and she walked up to the passenger window and I rolled it down. "What's up Shun?" I said. "Nothing chilling. Why you don't come roll up with us no more?" She replied. "I been busy, I'm gone have to come fuck with y'all one weekend. I'll catch up with you later." I said before driving off. I turned up the radio not too loud but loud and I drove about 15 minutes to my Mama's house. When I got to my mama's house I didn't see her car. I got out and knocked on the door. After about a minute my mom answered the door and hugged me and kissed me. "Hey love." She said. "Hey." I responded. She looked me up and down and went to my car to get Patience and her bag. As she was walking back I grabbed Patience's bag from her and took it upstairs to Patience's room.

"Where's your car?" I asked. "Britt and her husband are getting a divorce so I'm giving it to her and tomorrow I'm gonna get the Mercedes truck." I couldn't believe my mom. My sister Brittany was older than me by 7 years and she was so stupid. She always wanted to marry a semi rich man and be a housewife. Her plan worked. She went to college and got a B.A. in Social Work just to say she had a degree. She has a husband who isn't rich but he's well off, had a kid named Courtney and she has it made, she doesn't have to want for anything but she can't stop cheating.

I guess her husband left her for good so she's moving back home now. This means nothing but drama. Out of all 4 of my siblings Brittany and I always had enough drama to make it to a reality show. "You aren't happy your sister's home?" My mom asked while playing with Patience. I looked at her and nodded my head. I kissed my mom and Patience goodbye and left.

Gabrielle told me to come get her so we could catch up.

I pulled up at Gabby's house and she came and got in. Not even giving me time to open the door for her. "Hey Gab. How you doing?" I greeted her. "Hey Darius. I'm fine." Gabby said while pinching my cheeks. She kissed me on my forehead and I drove off.

Gabby and I sat on the living room floor watching movies and playing games like connect four and monopoly. Gabby and I talked about everything under the sun. This reminds me of the time when I cried in front of Gabrielle after I vented. Other than my mom Gabrielle is the only woman who seen me cry. Gabrielle always cried in front of me, she was in touch with her feelings.

I was getting horny ad I didn't want to come on to Gabrielle so I went to my bed to go to sleep. When I started dozing off Gabby came in my room and sat at the foot of my bed. "You suck! Balls! Big hairy balls!!" Gabby yelled. I laughed and grabbed her and pulled her and she laid her head on my chest. Gabrielle started rubbing her hands on my chest and then her hands went lower until they reached my dick. I looked at her "You sure?" I asked. She nodded her head. My dick got hard. I tugged at Gabby's bra and took it off. I got on top of her and licked her boobs and kissed her. I unbuttoned my pants and Gabby's. I stared at Gabby's body in awe. My gaze was so intense it made her cringe. Gabby's naked body was so beautiful. I kissed every part of her beautiful body. I stuck my raw penis inside of her and she gasped. Gabby covered her face with her hands. I kissed her and whispered "I'll be gentle, I promise." I did slow long strokes. Sex was a big thing for Gabby because she had been a virgin for 18 years of her life. Until now. As soon as it was getting good, I swore I heard someone in the living room. I ignored it. "Try going deeper." Gabby said. I went deeper but I didn't put the whole thing in and the door opened. It was Diana.