Like I'm gonna lose you (Clawen)

The fight

CLAIRE'S POV

My morning was the same as the past two. Waking up and rushing to the toilet to throw up. "Owen" I croaked. "Yeah, babe" Owen whispered rubbing my back. "I think, I'm gonna stay home today" I stuttered. "Okay, get some rest" he replied picking me up and putting back in bed. Owen got dressed and went downstairs for breakfast. I haven't told him about the baby. The truth is I'm willing to prolong telling him as long as possible. "Babe, do you need anything before I go?" Owen shouted from downstairs. "Yeah, could you get me a hot water bottle please" I called back. My stomach cramps were really painful. Owen soon came up with my hot water bottle. "Thanks" I forced a smile to hide my pain. "Bye, babe, see you later" Owen smiled and gave me a quick kiss on lips before leaving.

I got dress because I couldn't stay in bed all day. I decided to phone Karen and ask for her help. Beep beep...beep beep. "Hello?" Karen said. "Hey Karen, if you're not busy, could you come round?" I asked nervously. "Claire, I'll be round in 10 minutes" Karen sounded like she was searching for her car keys. I hung up. I was scared how Owen and Karen were going to react. I sat on the sofa staring at the TV, but I wasn't listening to it. I was starting to regret inviting Karen over but it was too late. The doorbell went, meaning Karen was here. I let out a sigh before opening  the door. "Hey" my voice was quiet, "Hi, Claire" Karen beamed pulling me into a hug. "Do you want tea or coffee?" I said leading Karen into the kitchen. "Coffee please" she said as she took a seat at the island. "So, what did you want to talk me about" Karen asked. I handed her the coffee and sat down next to her. I sighed. "Karen, I...I'm pregnant" I blurted out. "Oh my gosh, Claire! That's amazing" Karen shut up when she saw the look on my face. I was just staring at the coffee expressionless. "Does Owen know?" She spoke calmly. I shook my head in fear that if I tried to talk I would burst out crying. "Claire, you're going to have to tell him sooner or later" Karen spoke gently, obviously aware that the subject was delicate. "I kn.." As I spoke I burst into tears. "Oh, Claire" Karen pulled me into her warm embraced.

I pulled away trying to calm myself down. "Karen, I'm scared, I don't know what to do" I hiccuped. "Claire, don't worry I'm hear for you and I'm sure Owen will be as well" Karen sounded sympathetic. I nodded and wiped my eyes. "How far along are you? She asked anxiously. "About 3 weeks, I haven't been to the doctors yet" my voice was shaking slightly. "Claire, you need to stop stressing, it's not good" Karen furrowed her eyebrows. "I know" I said a bit ashamed. Karen and I continued our conversation for an hour or so before she left.

It was 5:30 and I was waiting for Owen to come home. I was still debating telling him. "Claire, I'm home" Owen called as he walked through the door. "In here" I called from the lounge. "Hey, baby are feeling better" he asked sitting next to me. "A bit" I managed a weak smile as Owen kissed my forehead. We watched TV for bit before I decided to break the silence. "Have you ever thought about starting a family?" I asked nervously. "What do you mean, we're a family. You, me, Karen, Scott and the boys" Owen answered puzzled. "I mean our own family, having kids?" I hoped I wasn't being too obvious. "Errm, no, not really, it wasn't part of my plan and I thought it wasn't part of yours" he came across slightly angry and harsh. "True, but are you saying you never want to have kids with me?" I asked as my voice wavered. Owen hesitated "ye...no" his voice was sharp. "Do you not want, to have kids with me?" I asked scared. "I thought we were happy as we are" Owen sounded angry as he stood up. I stood up looking at him trying to find his kind eyes but they were lost in his harsh ones. He looked back into my fragile eyes. "I'm just not ready to have kids, we're not even married yet" Owen raised his voice. "Do you love me?" I stammered. "Of course I love you, Claire. That's a stupid question" his voice was so harsh. I burst out crying, I couldn't handle my emotions. "Argh, why are you crying again" Owen shouted. That just made me cry harder. "Seriously, Claire, you're so confusing lately" he continued. "I can't have this anymore" Owen left the room and ran upstairs. I took a deep breath and ran up after him.

Owen was shoving his clothes into a suitcase. "I'm leaving" he said bluntly. He marched back down the stairs. "Fine be like that" I shouted and threw my engagement ring at him. Owen grabbed it before slamming the door and leaving. I ran to the door and watched him leave. What have I done. My heart sank. I turned with my back against the door and fell to the ground. I sobbed my heart out. I've lost him. I love him and now he's gone. I suddenly remembered that I was pregnant and cried even harder. What was I going do. I didn't want to tell Karen, she wouldn't be much help. I didn't want to speak to anyone again. I just wanted Owen to hold me tight and tell me everything is okay. But he was gone and was probably never coming back. I got into bed and disappeared under the covers. I couldn't sleep because of the empty space next to me. My head was spinning, what was I going to do about Owen. What was I going to about our baby.

A/N: Hey guys, I hoped you like it. Owen left Claire :((
Goodnight😴