Teach Me How to Love Again (Sequel to Dirty Little Secret)

Chapter 10: They Drew Blood (With Commentary)

*~(The title of this chapter is from This is the Best Day Ever by My Chemical Romance.)~*

*~Gerard's P.O.V.~*

It was now Monday. I arrived in New Jersey on Sunday. I had scheduled a paternity test for Tuesday, and I was so nervous right now. yes. days of the week.

If it isn't my baby, I'm screwed because Sky will still never forgive me, so I'll just be alone. YOU STILL FUCKED HER EITHER WAY BRO, THE FATHER OF THE BABY IS IRRELEVANT. WHAT ARE YOU NOT GRASPING. 

If it is my baby, I'm screwed because Eliza will definitely never let me see him now that I doubted her. She'd have custody so fast. They don't usually give any custody to men with a past as bad as mine. You mean pedos? Yeah

It's scary, because if she really wanted custody, she knows so much shit she could use against me. She could tell the judge that she was an underage student when I started dating her. She could tell them that I got fired from her school for being hungover all the time. She could tell them my last girlfriend was a seventeen year old student who I cheated on. She could tell them I'm an alcoholic who's on lots of anti-depressants. So she could tell them the truth?? that you're absolutely not fit to be a dad and SHOULDN'T be able to see the kid??? oh no how evil of her for wanting the best for her baby and not wanting a pedo in his life

She would get custody for sure. I don't stand a chance. I really hope this kid isn't mine, because either way, I'll never meet him. GOOD

I'm also scared to see Eliza tomorrow. I hadn't seen her in person since I moved back to California after I moved to Jersey for that short amount of time, and I had wanted to keep it that way. She scares me.

I was currently watching TV in my hotel room. I felt sick from the nerves. Mikey had offered to come with me on this trip, but I told him not to. He was busy with something this week. He'd been getting together with Frank and Ray a lot lately, but he refused to tell me why. If Frank is involved, it must have something to do with Sky. That's good. I hope they do something fun for her. She deserves to be happy. He doesn't even know her birthday??? After they were together all those months?? Red flag as fuck bestie

I turned off the TV and rolled over to try and get some sleep. I needed to be rested for my big day tomorrow. ok

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I woke up early, because sleep doesn't come very easily to me anymore.

I didn't have to be to the doctor for three more hours, so I just sat in bed to think. I'm so nervous for this fucking test.

About an hour of just sitting and thinking passed, so I hesitantly got dressed, then I watched TV until it was finally time to meet Eliza. hehehehe hesitant alien

I tried to draw to take my mind off of everything, but that didn't help. I had stopped drawing now, because whenever I try to draw something, I end up drawing Sky. She's just perfect to sketch. Her face shape is perfect for drawing. The way her hair covers some of her face is also perfect to draw. Her lips and eyes are my favorite things to draw. She's so adorable, it's so fun to draw her. WHY DID I SAY THE WORD DRAW SO MANY TIMES IM WHEEZING IT'S KUZCO'S POISON AGAIN

When it was time for me to get to the doctor, I took one last shaky breath before I exited my hotel, got into my rental car, and started driving towards the hospital. ok.

It was about a ten minute drive. I found a parking spot next to a car I recognized all too well. It was Eliza's car. 'CAUSE THERE WE ARE AGAIN ON THAT LITTLE TOWN STREET YOU ALMOST RAN THE RED 'CAUSE YOU WERE LOOKIN OVER AT ME WIND IN MY HAIR I WAS THERE I REMEMBER IT ALL TOO WELL 

She got out of her car and flashed me that evil smile of hers. "Hello, Gerard."

"H-hi, Eliza," I murmured. I didn't want to meet eyes with her. She'd probably suck my soul out through my eyes. That woman is Satan. DIVERSITY WIN! SATAN IS A WOMAN!

"Let's get this over with, huh? Maybe then you'll see how fucking wrong you are," she said. I sighed. We silently entered the building and checked in for our appointment. It was Eliza's doctor, so she seemed to know her way around.

We waited for about ten minutes before the doctor came out. I had been sitting far away from Eliza in the waiting room. I didn't even want to come in contact with her. Do paternity tests happen at a doctor? I'd imagine there's like some special facility for that, but honestly I have no idea. I'd give this 0/10 writing, 2015 M, but honestly I'm not sure if you're wrong. 

The doctor didn't say much as she led us to a room.

"You two are here for a paternity test, correct?" the doctor asked.

"Yes," I said.

"Okay. I'll just need to draw some blood," she said. I gulped. I fucking hate needles. AGAIN, IS THAT HOW PATERNITY TESTS WORK??? I LITERALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHY DID I DO ABSOLUTELY NO RESEARCH ON THIS BEFORE I WROTE THIS CHAPTER. ALL I KNOW ABOUT PATERNITY TESTS COMES FROM MAURY 

I wish I had Sky here. She'd probably hold my hand and keep me safe while the doctor stuck that fucking needle into me.

I clenched my eyes shut and took a deep breath to distract myself from looking at the needle. I felt the small stabbing pain as the doctor stuck the stupid thing in my arm, which made me clench my eyes even tighter. Soon enough, it was finally over. She got a new needle and did the same to Eliza. Eliza didn't even flinch. Also, is it even possible to do a paternity test while the baby's still in the womb? I'm gonna assume that one's a no. -1000/10 writing, 2015 M. 

"Alright. We'll send these to the lab, and we'll get you your results as soon as possible," the doctor said.

We waited in the room for what felt like an eternity before the doctor returned.

The doctor shuffled some paperwork, took a deep breath, stared at both of us momentarily, then she spoke.

"The results show that he is not the biological father." MAURY! MAURY! MAURY! MAURY! Gerard better be doing his victory dance rn