Blood inside my pen (a mindless behavior story)

chapter-4

I took the subway to ryan's house (I live in the Bronx). I called him while on the subway and I said that I had "something to tell him but in private" which meant the murder I had just committed, and I apolized  for what cheransto just did it was my fault, see I said he come over not knowing that cheransto would bring his burger- flipping ass back so quick. If they try to arrested me for doing this I'll just claim self defense I mean ion have to tell the truth he's dead. I'm known around here as a hoe, because I left this guy named craig for ryan. we fucked a couple times but I mean he was hitting me I couldn't take ot anymore so I dumped that nigga and since then I've been known as a hoe. and the sad thing is I think he got me pregnant. its goin be tragic if he did. I mean.... well that's get back to to ryan. when I got there I rushed and explained everything that happened . the rape, the murder and I told him not to tell anyone either or i'll have to commit another murder. Well I love him but lekeaisha got to do wihat she got to do.

ryan- well my mom on a business trip shes gonna be gone for a long ass time so im alone, and my momma don't really give a fuck

I laughed because of the way he still had humor even through I had just killed someone, that's what I liked about ryan. we sat there and talked for like a hour, not even talking about the murder. that's the kind of person ray was and I loved him because of that. when it got to be about 10 o clock we went to sleep (and no we didn't fuck)

this  part was kind of boring but it will get better trust me it will