letters to M

first letter

Dear M,

How is it that I lost you, but you were never mine? I've asked myself that a lot. And yet I still don't have the answer. I don't know if I ever will, honestly. And that scares me. Why, you might ask? It's because I don't want to go through life wondering if I was ever good enough for you, or if you just didn't care. And I don't know which is worse. I want to thank you for something, though. I want to thank you for teaching me that not everyone you care about sticks around.
Thankful,
Jessica