Under pressure

I'm Sorry. Whatever/Whomever you want.

-=+=-

You scream at me from the lounging room.

You were so happy a few minuets ago.

What happened?

Was it me?

I didn't say anything, is that why?

Should I have said something?

I didn't want to bud in.

You weren't talking to me..

You never talk to me.

You still love me.

Or that's what you say.

Are you lying?

I wouldn't put it past you.

I don't know who you are anymore.

Did I ever know who you were?

You never have time for me anymore.

Or maybe that's just me being selfish.

Yeah that's it I'm selfish.

I ask for too much.

I expect too much from you.

I need to chill.

I'll stop talking, I'll go away, I'll stay in my room.

Anything to make you happy.

Just please be happy.

I need you to be happy.

Don't scream at me anymore please?

No!

There I go again.

Asking for things that seem to be impossible.

I'm sorry for ruining your life.

I'm sorry for ruining everyone's life.

It would be better if I wasn't here.

I need to start a new life.

You never seem to be happy.

How can I make you happy?

Please just be happy.

Not for me.

But for you.

I'm trying to be strong.

I need to be strong.

I feel so helpless crying at night when everyone else is asleep.

But I'm not doing it In front of you.

You don't need to see me like this.

You can't see me like this.

Please don't see me like this.

You don't need to worry about me.

I won't do anything stupid.

I'm not a murderer.

Please don't worry about me.

If I knew you were worrying about me,

I would die even more then I already have.

Which I don't think you would really notice.

I hope you wouldn't notice.

I'm not worth being noticed.

So please just ignore me.

I won't die.

I might feel like it but I won't.

I don't know what would make you happier.

Me living or dieing?

Can I not find out?

Can I just live the rest of my life thinking you care?

Even though I'm pretty sure you don't?

Please can I have that one little piece of happiness?

I know I don't deserve it but please?

This one thing?

I will leave as soon as I can!

I just want this one little piece of happiness.

Thinking that you love me.

Thinking that you care?

Probably not.

It's probably for the best.

I mean I don't need more lies in my life...

Do I?

-=+=-

Hope you guys enjoyed? Tell me how I can improve?

Cya next time! -Blue