Hi Diary,
Do you remembered the Band Fest? I've been there, I watched their performance ... Last night. I was very overwhelmed cause I really thought that it's impossible for me to watch it, di ko naman alam kung saan at kailan yun. I do stalked him again kaya ko nalaman. I'm very very thankful that I saw him again, for the second time. Akala ko mag hihintay pa ako ng ilang decades eh. Tama, kahit hindi na ako nag susulat dito, palagi ko paring binibisita ang wall niya, Raak ! hahah. Tama nga yung lyrics ng kanta; Kung ayaw may dahilan kung gusto palaging merong paraan. Do you know what's the best part of that night? it's when I proved that I'm really into him, that I do have feelings for him, that I'm stupid for developing feelings for him, that he's so close yet so far, that I'm a moron for dreaming about him, stupid that I fell in love with a stranger.... too many realization that makes me cry. Yes, I cried, my eyes produced so many tears just for the person I barely known. I don't know what to feel when he looked at me, and I don't think he remembered me. I don't know what's going on his mind. In the end of the night, they brought home the bacon. Oo, nanalo sila :) Napatalon nga ako, eh. habang tumutugtog sila, nakikisabay talaga ako. Now I know the feeling of being a fan girl... hahah nakakatawa, di pa naman sila ganon ka sikat but I can't just stop myself from cheering! magaling yung banda nila sobra. The sad part was when he told me he didn't saw me after I congratulated him through messenger. Ha! really? I'm confused. So ano yung smile niya? pang strangers? Yes. he smiled at me, or maybe it's not for me but I do believe that he saw me, we had eye contacts, that's why I'm really confused. Acting lang ba yun? na hindi niya ako nakita? o hindi niya alam na ako yun? I don't want to over-think it but it's happening now.
But I won't break my promise, I've saw him already.. so I should not disturb him anymore. well, hindi na talaga, matapos niya akong e'seenzoned </3 (PakamatayKaNalangAte) Hhahhaha Joke. I want to clear things; Hhahah Gusto ko parin siya, gustong gusto ko parin po siya.....
-CMCSP
