The pain from my heart has never diminished since the day you left the Earth. I still can't believe that you passed away just like that. My head has been a space of total emptiness and every time I think of you, pieces of sorrow just fill up my head, one by one. I had been numb to the pain, in total shock, and a part of my soul just couldn't let you go. I just couldn't let you take off so suddenly like that, and fly off where I'll never be able to touch, see or hear you again. The thought of it was just unbearable. You were just too precious to let go.
Every time I go to the park, I see you and I holding hands, standing at our favorite spot, watching all the glittering little stars. Every time I walk on the streets, there are visions of you beside me with your fingers wrapped around mine. Every time I walk past our favorite restaurant, I would see us sitting there, at the corner table, slurping our smoothies while thumb-wrestling over a slice of pizza. Illusions of you make it even more difficult to forget you. Memories of you are still deeply etched into my mind, where it is filled with regret, regret, and regret.
I miss the times when we used to chat together, when we would share with each other every day's happenings.
I miss the times when you used to call me in times of sadness, anger, or confusion. I would take the time to console you, comfort you, and make you know how much I loved you.
I miss the times when I would share with you my problems, and you would not hesitate to inspire and motivate me, or help me in any way you could.
I miss the times when we would explore the streets together, where we would buy meaningful and memorable things for each other.
I miss the times when we fed each other ice-cream, when we would share the sweetness and happiness in our lives, forgetting all our pains and agony and replacing them with sweetness from the heart.
I miss the times when I glanced across the classroom, and saw you looking dazedly back at me. And then, I would gaze back at you, feeling that time had stopped and our relationship was all that mattered.
I miss the times when we used to hold hands, with our fingers interlocking one other. How I wish the warmth from your hand would remain.
How I wish that time would stand still, and that we still are spending our time with each other. How I wish things would not end like this. How I wish I had spent more time with you. I will miss you, forever and always.
