Lost the Other Half, Found the Insanity

Chapter Six: Rebound

Rin's P.O.V

I walked up to the school doors. I want to find him before the bell rings. Where's his locker? I pushed through the doors and headed to my locker. I opened it up and grabbed the books and notes I would need for my first few classes. After shutting my locker, I turned around, and there was Miku, staring down at me. She reached up and twirled a strand of her hair around her thin, long fingers. 

"I saw you walk home with Len after school yesterday, Rinny," she said, with what sounded like a condescending tone. "First day, and you already found a hook-up? I'm impressed! Although..I wonder what made him want you? I mean, just look at yourself! No sex appeal to speak of. Your boobs are disappointing to say in the least, and curves? Non-existent! And for the love of god, cover your repulsive stomach. You're way too fat to pull a crop top off."

After she was finished completely obliterating my confidence, she turned and walked away, bumping my shoulder roughly as she passed me. There was a satisfied smirk spread across her face.

Before I knew what I was doing, I dropped my books on the floor and ran to the front doors, covering my face with my arm as tears ran down my pink cheeks. I burst out of the building and kept running. I'm going home. I can't deal with this. I made my way home, and once there, ran inside. I slammed the door behind me and slid down it. My knees came went up to my chin and I cried into my arms. This can't be happening again.. Every word she said got to me. I could hear then bouncing around in my head. "too fat"..."no sex appeal"..."boobs are disappointing" and "non-existent curves"

I wore shirts that showed my stomach to forcibly boost my confidence. The months it took to finally appreciate my body are all down the drain. Washed away. GONE. All because of that diva bitch. 

My body jolted as I let out a loud sob. Why... "Why me?!" I pressed my hands against the door behind me and stood up, my legs wobbling. I slowly dragged myself up the stairs to my bedroom, and sat down on the side of my bed. I took a deep breath and opened the drawer to my bedside table. I rummaged through the contents before finding what I was looking for: I pair of shiny, silver scissors. I choked on another sob and pulled down the right side of my uniform skirt. Pausing, I swallowed the panic that rose in my throat like vomit. I sucked in a breath and clenched my jaw, tears streaming down my face. I opened the scissors and gripped it so I could use one of the blades. I held the sharp blade close to the skin of my hip and touched the cold, familiar metal to it. I've been clean for five months...

I'm throwing that all away now. I looked at all of the old scars I left from cutting too deep. Time to add some new ones. A small smile creeped onto my face as I pushed down and the blade sliced into my skin. I slid it down in a straight line about two inches long. I gasped after I finished the first one. A shiver ran down my spine. "Oh god..~" It felt so good... I continued until I had five fresh, bleeding cuts on my hip. I wiped the blood off of my tool on my sheets, then put it away in the drawer, closing it.

Sweet relief... I felt a pang of regret, but quickly drowned it out. I feel free again.

Len's P.O.V

The bell rang at 2:45, signaling the end of the school day. I decided to go check on Rin, even if we barely knew each other. I still remember the way to her house from yesterday...hopefully she won't think I'm creepy. It's just the considerate thing to do, right? That is, since I saw her run out earlier this morning. I just want to make sure she's okay. 

I swung my book bag over my shoulder and began walking. Out of the school, then in the direction of her house. About five minutes after I left the school, I remembered something and pulled my phone out of my pocket. I sent Kaito a text, telling him I'll be home late, then tucked the phone away.

Soon, I was standing in front of her door. What if she's not home? What if  it creeps her out that I remembered where she lives? What if.. Okay Len..stop panicking. Just knock. 

I hesitantly raised my hand to the door and knocked a few times. I put my hand back down to my side and waited. It took a while, but eventually I heard a quiet voice on the other side of the door. "Who's there..?" the voice asked. "Um..." I cleared my throat. "It's Len," my voice cracked as I responded. She slowly opened the door and peeked out. "Len..? Why are you here?" she seemed a little confused. 

"I-I.." my social anxiety kicked in and I looked at the ground, reading the word "Welcome" on the mat below my feet over and over again in my head. I kept my eyes trained on the letter m as I started to speak. "I saw you leave this morning..er..I just wanted to know if you were alright." My feet shuffled. "Oh, yeah. I'm..fine. I just felt kind of sick," she mumbled. I felt like something was wrong. She's lying. I've left school the way she did today before. In a rush, not even bothering to take my stuff with me. I took a few awkward, silence filled seconds to figure out what to say next. It looked like she was about to close the door, so I blurted out the first sentence to reach my tongue from my mind.

"Do you want to talk about it?"