Dear who ever the hell is reading this
Perhaps you've heard and perhaps you havent well your reading the letter the last words of a dead girl . Yes you heard correctly a dead girl DEAD DEAD DEAD . Ive thought about doing this for a while taking my own life . Yes I know its crazy but you don't know how much pain I felt inside ,how much I suffered ,and now its over . Please don't hate me I'm so much happier now .that I'm dead I know you'll also wonder why I did this and blame yourself . There's nothing you could've done to save me I made up my mind .so just stop it
I know I'm quite young only 19 but there is so much you don't know. The demons that are inside me clawing and tearing me apart . I couldnt take everything . I'm so sorry for this ,the person who finds me , and the person who reads this note .
I've had depression for years ,the worst at only 13. I've had anxiety extreme anxiety since my time in foster care . You'll learn everything soon enough just keep reading .
If you didn't know my names Rosaline May Ryea . I've never been fond of my last name . I'm 19 I'm short ,and a too fat for my liking . My mothers Brenda . Please don't let her read this . I don't have many friends anymore guess they forgot or abondened me like most do , but can you please tell in my mind my best friend fox also know as riki I'm ok and PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't do what I did . Don't become like me you have so much life left . Just please.
Well where to begin with why . Might as well tell you my life story . Lol perhaps you will learn then the reason why and my final message perhaps I don't know just keep reading the letter of this dead girl .
I was born in this horrible state Vermont on May 18 of 1996. I dont remember much before the age of five . It often comes any memories at all in flash backs : bunnies two of my brothers births Cheetos the cat and the graveyard I lived near . The schools I went too that I remember is Milton Highgate swanton Sheldon the Enosburg high school and BFA. I hated my time in Swanton Sheldon and BFA . Now learn why .
Let's begin with Swanton , Sheldon and then BFA. Don't that sound so nice . I was young then I don't remember how young . I remember I had a crush on Bradley Greenman I did in sixth I think to eighth grade too . Please tell him I missed him these past few years and I missed being his friend . I had no friends at first til three girls took me in . I don't know really how to spell there names but I'll try . kylee, Stephinie and the worst of all Mercedes . What you three did is unforgivable . I thought you were my friends but I was dead get it haha dead wrong . You turned on me , and spread nasty rumors . The secrets I told you like having a crush on Montana you told them to everyone . Yes I made friends after but I had fear they'd do the same . Because of you I can't couldn't trust anyone . Now off to the truth of Sheldon .
Well Sheldon school . 5 to 8th grade . I didn't have many friends . The rumors were funny at least the ones I heard about . Like I'm a lesbian ,pregnant or has stds. I was a virgin then . My main friends were amber sage and I hope I spell it right rakaya and khylia . I become friends with brad Cody ( another crush ) Brittany Tyler and hope I spell it right marhai . Hannah Johnson the queen bitch I never liked , and I regret not saying yes to Casey I didnt know who was even asking til it was too late . Tell him those flowers I didn't send and I'm sorry for saying no and I'm sorry to all those I mentioned besides hannah .
Now BFA . I never fit it . Never really had friends besides kyle (I know you liked me but never asked that question ) tj (my ex ) Desiree Samantha and if he counts my semi crush tannar . Tannar hugged me my first day thanks for that the first kindness I had felt and saw in weeks . Samantha and Desiree thanks you two girls taking me in . I miss watching those big foot videos with Samantha. Kyle you sat with me at lunch and saved me . What that message said was true . I was severely bullied for who I am and what I looked like . I heard the remarks rumors and your laughing especially you three Charles sage and leane. I know I didn't spell that right but who cares . You made my life hell and made my drop out . Thanks thanks a lot .
