Teach Me How to Love Again (Sequel to Dirty Little Secret)

Chapter 12: I'm Not Built For Love, I'm Not Good Enough (With Commentary)

*~(The title of this chapter is from Smoke Rings by frnkiero andthe cellabration.)~*

Still waiting for the Paramore -2021 M

*~Frank's P.O.V.~*

We really had gone shopping on Sunday. We all pitched in and got her a guitar, a few band shirts and a phone case. Although, the most personal thing we got her was a charm bracelet. The charms included a guitar, a paintbrush, a microphone, a pencil, a book, a musical note, a pair of headphones, and a heart. It was all of her favorite things on one bracelet. It was sort of expensive, but she was worth it. ok emo

This week had been going pretty well at school. Today was Wednesday, and today was the day I wanted to ask Jamia to the prom. She had study hall with us, so Sky was encouraging me to do it now. Our teacher had left the room to make copies, so now was my opportunity. I was so nervous. My hands were so sweaty. KNEES WEAK ARMS ARE HEAVY THERES VOMIT ON HIS SWEATER ALREADY MOM'S SPAGHETTI no? okay.

"C'mon, Frankie. You can do this," Sky whispered.

"I-I don't think I can," I stammered.

"If you don't do it, I'll do it for you," she sighed.

"I can't do it," I said.

She rolled her eyes, but still chuckled. She stood up from her seat, and I grabbed her arm to try and stop her, but she pulled my sweaty hand off of her and continued to walk towards Jamia.

Jamia was talking to one of her friends, so Sky tapped her on the shoulder. Jamia looked at her.

"Hey, my best friend over there wants to ask you to prom, but he's too scared," Sky said. I blushed so darkly I probably looked like a fucking tomato. 

Jamia looked at me, and I could have sworn I saw her blush too. "Of course I will," she said. I tried to hide my smile, but I couldn't. She giggled adorably at me. 

Sky came and sat down next to me again. "Thank you so much, oh my God," I said. She laughed.

"No problem, Frankie. You would have done the same thing for me if there was anybody I wanted to go to prom with," she said almost sadly. I know she still misses Gerard terribly. 

After that, she kind of went silent. Now I felt bad, but even if she was still with Gerard, she'd have nobody to go to prom with. WOW HE REALLY ROASTED HER THERE HUH

The bell eventually rang, so I started to leave with Sky. She shook her head and shoved me towards Jamia. "You're gonna get to know your date. I'll see you at the apartment later," she said. I started stammering again, but I still approached Jamia. 

Sky left the school. Kristin was probably picking her up again like she always did. Kristin, Mikey or Ray always picked us up from school. ok

"Um... H-hi," I murmured to Jamia.

"H-hey," she said. She seemed just as nervous as I was. "I-I'm Jamia, by the way. Shit, I'm s-sure you already know that." these mfs be stuttering so much i think this is an impediment now besties

I laughed. "Y-yeah. I'm Frank."

We started walking together. My heart skipped a beat and my face flushed beet red as she held my hand. Wow, she's just as beautiful up close as I've thought from afar for all these years.

*~Sky's P.O.V.~*

I'm so happy for Frank and Jamia. I think they're already in love. GIRL ALL THEY DID WAS EXCHANGE NAMES UHHH??????? THAT'S A BIT MUCH

I wish I had love. I thought I had it, but that definitely wasn't love. Well, I loved him, but that obviously wasn't mutual. I know why he cheated - who wouldn't cheat on somebody as ugly as I am? But, I still don't understand why he'd hurt me like that. He claimed he loved me. Why would he just betray me like that? okay sky and her insistence on bringing Gerard up in any situation would be absolutely insufferable to be friends with. I'm sorry Sky, I love you, but you're insufferable. 

But oh well. I'm just glad Frank finally got to find love. If I can't find love, I'm glad he can. LOVE???????????? THEY JUST EXCHANGED NAMES

Maybe I'm just not meant to find love. I'm not good enough for anybody. GIRL YOU'RE 17 RELAX A BIT