Amanda

Remebering

She was a soft person to me I tried to be with her at first I didn't really know her well. She was quiet and very shy with me I couldn't figure out why. I thought maybe it was her friends or maybe she just didn't like me. She was very cute her eyes were filled with mystery. Grey almost blue eyes would look at me I never thought she would mean anything to me like she does I would say it's my curse as a Cancer. My zodiac sign is very emotional very raw with passion. I'll never forget her face she dislikes me now due to recent events. Yet I love her she is creative and very passionate in her profession as a writer her story's tell of hurt and pain I pray one day she has a beautiful story to tell.

She thinks of me as a bad guy at least I think so but I'll never forget her. The pain she has is terrible. I told her I wish I could take it for her so she would never have to bare the hurt. But what happens with us will come later. I'm speaking of the past now when she spoke to me the first time my heart raced. She was very pretty she had the cutest nose her eyes burned into my memory. She was my girl for a while then things just didn't work out. I remember seeing her standing alone or sitting alone. I was a fool for letting her go I should have sed something to her. But soon she left I never seen her after that till one day I sed hi to her in a message. Told her that I wanted her to be mine she agreed so we talked for a few days. It was great I thought of her the whole time but one day see sent me a picture of her arms. Cut marks going across I was in shock I never had someone show me their pain so close before. Like a fool I panicked told her to leave me alone brought more pain to her life I was selfish it disgust me how I acted. If I could go back and change everything I would have but we've all sed that before

But she was a beautiful girl had great ways about her. She was precious in her own way it brings tears to my eyes when I think of how it would have been if we stayed together. I pushed her away I believe. But she loved someone else someone who had her heart better than I did. Sad to say this person had a piece of my heart as well. I've never been so in love before but when I would speak to Amanda all my worries and problems went away. Like peace of mind she brought so much energy to my soul much love and passion to my heart. I'll never meet another person like her.