Friday 7th of February 2014
"Come down for breakfast sweetie" says my dad 10 minutes after my 6:30am alarm I set.
I stomp to the bathroom expecting to look like a horrible mess as usual. I look in the mirror, and yep, I look like a gorilla, no surprise there. I have a huge afro bigger than my brain, bags under my eyes, and balloon sized lips. Perfect for my first day back at school, I want to impress boys on the first day, not make them runaway from me of fright.
After getting ready and eating my breakfast, I hear three knocks on my door, and I think, must be Steph and Cece. I open and the door, "GOOD MORNING CAIT!" Stephanie says.
With boredom I say "hi."
"Wow, you could sure use some enthusiasm to make us feel like you want us here." Cece mumbles as we all walk into the living room.
"And you could sure use a big make over" Steph follows.
We all sit on the couch waiting for 8:30am so we can set off to school.
"Sorry guys I'm just not in the mood." I say looking down at my feet.
"Today is going to be a good day, it's the school dance! That's got to make you atleast a bit more excited?" Cece says with great enthusiasm.
"I just wish I could go with Ash, I want to go with Ash, I need to go with Ash.
But I know that if we do go together, he's going to make it a "friendship" kind of thing, BUT I WANT IT TO BE MORE THAN THAT!!"
"Just wait till lunch time, if he doesn't ask you by then then you can ask him." Stephanie says.
When we arrive at school we all spot Ashton Walker leaning on his locker staring at one of us.
Is it me? could he possibly be staring at me? He starts getting closer, he reaches for my hand and takes me into Spanish. The bell rings. As we sit down Mrs Harren shouts "Buenos días estudiantes!" no one replies as usual since we're all teenagers and can't be bothered to do anything. Ashton is sitting next to me like he always does, but there's something different about the way he's treating me, he's been staring at me for the past five minutes, I can't get over how amazing he smells and how gorgeous his eyes look near the sunlight since we're sitting next to the window, he's never looked better. He leans closer and whispers, "So.. Dance tonight, do you have a partner?"
"y-y-no." I mumble.
Was I really nearly saying yes? Oh my god what am I doing.
"I was wondering, if, maybe you wanted to come with me, it's okay if you don't want to, I don't wan..."
before he finishes his sentence I cut him and say with a loud and clear voice "Yes! I do!"
I feel so embarrassed, it feels like he just asked to marry me, yes I do? what was I thinking. Oh no this is a disaster, he's going to think I'm the weirdest girl ever.
Confusedly he says "Oh okay, didn't expect that sort of answer but okay, I'll pick you up at 5."
One hour later when the bell rings Ashton and I meet up with Cece and Steph at our usual spot by the canteen. It's awfully quiet. No ones talking. We're all just staring at eachother in confusion and lack of excitement. A while later Ashton looks at me and then the sisters and asks if he can be excused, they both nod, just before he leaves I ask Cece and Stephanie looking directly at Cece "is it alright if I catch up with you guys at lunch?"
I'm sure they'll understand, they know how much Ashton means to me.
They both look at each other then a few seconds later, "yep sure" Steph says
Ashton and I have been walking for what feels like forever, I check my watch, it's only been two minutes.
"I wanted to tell you something, I knew that if I asked to leave you'd come too, it was kind of a plan I made in my head." Ashton made it sound like it was something serious and he looked upset.
"You know can tell me anything Ash."
When we get to a more quiet place, he stops walking and turns around and steps in front of me. He stares into my eyes.
"I-I-I like you, I know it's stupid, I know you probably just want to be friends and I understand. But I just can't help it. I really really like you Caitlin."
I didn't know what to say, I was panicking inside, I could feel my heart beating faster than ever, I felt like it was going to explode out of me. What do I say I think to myself, I didn't want to muck up.
"I feel the same Ash, I've like you for ever, too long to count. I'm glad you told me because I was never going to tell you because, I felt like you'd think I'm stupid. We've been friends for so long and every second with you has been amazing and its been extremely hard to hide my feelings for you." I take a deep breath, I feel calmer now.
Ashton puts his right hand on my face.
It's warm and makes me feel safe.
He reaches in and before I know it our lips are touching. Is this really happening? Am I really kissing Ashton Walker? I can't believe this!
We both stop after a bit and look at each other, he gives me this awfully happy and cute smirk.
"Caitlin, will you be my girlfriend?"
"Of coarse I will Ash!"
It's 5pm and I'm waiting for Ash in my room. My mother chose a gorgeous turquoise dress for me and cute Windsor Smiths. My hair is curled and shiny. I hear a knock on the door. Shit, it's Ash. I'm so nervous I can barely breath. I walk down the stairs and open the door with my mom standing behind me.
"Hey." Ash smirks. He then sees my mother and says, "Good afternoon Mrs Shaw."
"Ah hello darling Ashton how are you doing?" She says with amusement.
"I'm doing very fine thank you, how about you?"
I hate it when my mom starts conversations with my friends, or in this case, my boyfriend. My very own boyfriend. I can't believe it. He's perfect and I feel spoilt.
"Okay you two we don't have until Christmas, enough chit chat ay." I say walking through the two of them and grabbing Ashton's hand heading outside.
"Alright have a wonderful night both of you." She yells from the door waving at us, like moms do.
When we got in the school hall I felt magical, I felt like it was going to be the best night ever.
It's the fifth song and dancing with Ash is the best feeling I've ever felt, his hands are soft and warm like earlier today, they fit with my hands so perfectly, like we were meant to be. The song finishes and Ash asks "Is it alright if I go outside to get some fresh air?"
"Yes of coarse! Could I come with you?" I say wondering if he's okay.
"Yes, yes you can."
We step outside and I feel the cold night breeze hit my face.
"Are you okay Ash? Is there something wrong?" I ask with great confusion.
"Yeah I'm fine! It's just really stuffy in there."
"Do you want to go home?" I say.
"Only if it's okay, I don't want to ruin you night. I can stay if you want."
"No no it's fine." I say heading towards the car.
