Secret Romance (IM5 Colton)

Chapter 17.

*Thursday, November 15th 2012*

*Dalton*

I'm nothing... I don't deserve to have anyone to love me... I'm not worth it...

Have you ever had one of those days where you just feel so down? Well that's me today. I got my phone out and called Cole because he always makes me feel better.

Cole: Hey.

Dalton: Hi.

Cole: What's wrong?

Dalton: I just... Why do you love me? I'm nothing Cole... I'm not worth it.

Cole: No gorgeous, don't say that. You're absolutely worth it. I love you because you're amazing and sweet and friendly and perfect and I love you so much.

I started crying and curled up in a ball on my bed.

Dalton: I'm not Cole... I don't deserve you...

Cole: Baby no...

Dalton: Can you come over please?

Cole: I can't, I'm with my sister. I have to go but I love you.

Dalton: I love you.

I hung up and walked into my bathroom. I turned the shower on and stripped my clothes off. I stepped in and the hot water immediately drowned my body. I felt all my emotions come at once and I just collapsed. I sank down to the floor and brought my knees into my chest. I couldn't hold the tears back and started loudly sobbing. Tears fell from my eyes like a waterfall and it made me feel even worse. I grabbed the razor that was next to me and stared at it. I haven't cut in so long and I promised everyone I wouldn't do it again. I slowly ran the blade along my wrist and winced at the feeling. After doing 10 on my left wrist, I did a couple on the other too. I watched as the water turned red with the blood and sobbed even more.

*Cole*

Dalton's voice really worried me when he called so I told my sister I had to go and she understood. I got in my car and made my way to Dalton's house. I knocked on the door and his mom opened it.

Kiva: "Cole, so nice to see you."

Cole: "You too, is Dalton here?"

Kiva: "He's just in the shower, come in."

She let me in and I went up to Dalton's bathroom. I opened the door and heard loud sobbing.

Cole: "Dalton baby, are you okay?"

I pulled the curtain to the side and felt tears come to my eyes and my heart break at what I saw. He was all curled up and there was blood running from both of his wrists leaving the water bright red. I climbed into the shower with him, not caring that I was still wearing my clothes then sat down beside him and pulled him into my arms. He put his head on my shoulder and sobbed into my neck.

Cole: "Dalton..."

I took his left wrist in my hand and brought it up to my lips. I kissed each and every one of the cuts and then did the same with his right wrist.

Cole: "Come on gorgeous, let's get you out of the shower."

I stood up, then helped him up and turned the water off. I wrapped a towel around him and took him out into his bedroom. I helped him into some sweats then I quickly took my clothes off and put some sweats on as well. I sat on the bed and pulled him to me. He sat in between my legs and I put my hands on his cheeks.

Cole: "What's going on?"

Dalton didn't answer, he just continued to quietly sob.

Cole: "Baby please, tell me what's wrong."

Dalton: "I-I... I just feel worthless... I don't deserve to have anyone love me."

Cole: "But Dalton you're not worthless at all. I already told you. You deserve to have everyone love you because of how amazing you are. I love you so much and I always will."

I was starting to cry by now and it made Dalton cry even more. I took his wrists in my hands again and I felt my heart break even more just looking at them.

Cole: "Please don't hurt yourself like this. It's not worth it. You have so many people who love you and would give their lives to help you."

Dalton: "Who?"

Cole: "The fans, your family, the boys and their families, my family, Cassidy, Madison and me. Especially me. I'd give anything for you. You're the love of my life and I hate seeing you upset. It hurts me when you hurt yourself."

My phone started ringing and it was Will.

Cole: Hi Will.

Will: What's wrong?

I looked at Dalton and he just nodded slightly

Cole: Dalton's-

I was cut off when I heard screaming and laughing in the background.

Will: Guys, shut up! Sorry Cole, continue.

Cole: Dalton's not feeling great today.

Will immediately understood what I was talking about.

Will: But he's been fine for so long.

Cole: I know.

Will: Can I talk to him?

I handed the phone to Dalton and he shakily took it.

*Dalton*

Dalton: Hi...

Will: Are you okay?

Dalton: No.

Will: Can the guys and I come over?

Dalton: Okay.

Will hung up so I gave Cole his phone back. I looked at him and he kissed my forehead.

My bedroom door opened about 10 minutes later and all three boys walked in. They walked over to us so I looked at them and Will's face turned sympathetic.

Dana: "What made you feel this way Dalton?"

Dalton: "I don't know. It hasn't happened in a while so I'm not sure why."

Gabe saw my wrists and his face fell.

Gabe: "You cut again?"

The others looked at my wrists so I hid them. Cole put his arm around me and rubbed mine.

Will: "What exactly is wrong?"

Dalton: "I just feel worthless... I don't think I deserve to be loved."

Will: "Dalton you're not. We all love you and you're the best best friend we could have. You do deserve to be loved."

I felt tears come to my eyes and a couple fell. Cole kissed my shoulder and he rubbed my arm again.

Dalton: "Thank you guys. It means a lot."

They all smiled and then Cole got off the bed. I watched him as he walked into the bathroom then came back out with bandages and cut cleaner. He sat down beside me again and took my wrists. I watched him as he cleaned and bandaged my wrists then put everything to the side.

Cole: "How are you feeling now?"

Dalton: "A little better, thanks to you guys."

Dana: "We'll always be here for you."

I smiled slightly and it made Cole smile. The other boys sat down on the bed with us and Cole pulled me so I was in between his legs again. He wrapped his arms around me and put his head on my shoulder so I rested mine on his.

Cole: "I love you Dalton."

Dalton: "I love you too."

He kissed me gently and then my door opened. My mom was there and she looked sad.

Kiva: "Are you okay now honey?"

Dalton: "I'm okay now."

She nodded and then left the room. The boys and I talked for a while and I slowly got back to normal.