heartache doesn't last forever (one direction//emblem 3 fanfic) *ON HOLD*

chapter 2;; Fizz's POV; heartache and fights

Fizz's POV

"....let me love you" zayn sang as he awkwardly stood in front of thousands of people and 3 of the most famous people in the world, SIMON COWELL, LOUIS WALSH AND CHERYL COLE!

my heart litterally melted every time i heard zayn sing that song, it was my favourite songs ever! zayn and i are known for being exactly the same at everything, he likes to draw, so do. he likes to sing, so do i (but nobody knows). the only difference between us if that I'm crazy and loud and hes shy and quiet, i've been trying for a very long time to get him out of his shell and right now i fee like a proud mother watching her child walk for the first time.

people always come up to us and ask really stupid questions like "are you guys dating or what?" and we always say the same thing "no! strictly best friends only!" and then we both show our matching best friend rings, but now i have to admit that i get a little upset when i say that there are no feelings between us, because he truth is that I'm started to develop feelings for him but i know its no use because he sees us as just best friends, so i push these feelings into the back to my mind. which is something i should do no, as i want  to pay my full attention to the meaningfulness of the lyrics of the song that zayn is so perfectly singing

"thank you very much zayn, that was very good" simon said glancing down at the notes he wrote during the performance. zayn flashed me a worried smile and i returned a reassuring one to him

"zayn, you have real potential but i feel that you havent shown us what your real abilities are and you can do better than this" cheryl began but then she was cut off by simon

"no cheryl. i think he is fantastic but you are right a bit, i feel that he might be able to show his true potential in a boy band" simon suggested. zayns eybrowed knitted together in confusion, i knew for a fact that he hated boy bands because they were too cliche and fake and i agreed with him on that, no matter how hard i tried, i couldnt imagine zayn in a boy band and even when i did, i had the sdden urge to burst out laughing

"ok, we are going to vote now, i say yes but you need to promise us that you will show your full potental in bootcamp" louis said. zayn was smiling from ear to ear at this point

"im going to say yes as well!" cheryl shouted perkiley, as if she was really exited about what zayn had to offer. by now, i could tell that zayn was trying to hold in the urge to jump on stage and hug them all.

"zayn, congratiolations, you have 3 yeses!!" simon said calmly. zayn was jumping about on stage, clearly exstatic about this opertunity. i was frozen to the spot in shock, i always knew that this was zayns biggest dream for his whole life, i made a vow right then and there that i would always be his biggest supporter, no matter how snobby or ignorant he gets. waliyah, safaa, doniya and trisha were all crying tears of joy and huddled up into a group hug. zayn ran out of the stage and hurried over to me, he picked me up and kissed me on the cheek, this means nothing to him though, i can tell, its normal for us but he doesnt know how much it means to me

he went off to his family so they could congratulate him and i hung to his side like a lost sheep

"zayn, you do know that this might be the end of your life here in bradford and you should know that we will always support you, no matter how famous you get" i said after he had finished being congratulated, staring into his big brown eyes

"i know" was all he replied with.

*2 weeks later*

i started collecting up my things for english next, i was never really that popular but i wasnt a total misfit, i was in between and i liked that. zayn wasnt in school today and it felt really wierd, he was at home packing for bootcamp, which starts tommorow.

"hey fizz!" said one of the really popular girls, maisie.

i rolled my eyes and said "hii maisie!" with clear fake enthusiasm

"did you hear the news?" she said in her annoying squeeky voice, i heard some of her followers laugh at this

"umm, what news?" i questioned, unsure of what she was about to tell me

"well, zayn asked me out yesterday..." my heart dropped as she said this "and i said yes, obvs!" she said with an obnoxious hair flip. i felt so broken and i cant help but blame this on zayn because he knows about my hatred for maisie.

"and i need to know this because??" i said, clearly annoyed

"well, i thought you should know seeing as hes leaving  tommorow and so he cant keep any secrets from you" she replied as if it was the most obvious thing in the world

"ok well bye then?" i almost questioned, tryign to hide the heartache that was digging through me, i walked away and ran to the toilets as soon as maisie and her group were out of sight. i walked into the toilets and cried, until all my tears were gone.

*later that day*

i sighed as i droppped my school bag onto the floor and went up to my room. i got the laptop and started looking through my facebook wall, most of it was sayign how proud they were of zayn, i was really annoyed with him so i couldnt even bare to see his name, so i switched off the monitor in anger and out my head in my hands and cried.

i heard a faint knock on my window, i knew it was zayn, i tried my hardest to ignore him, but even if im mad at him, i have to open it for him

"what do you want zayn?" i sighed

"fizz, im your best friend,  of course im going to come to you on the day best i leave for the xfactor" eh said confindently

"WHY DONT YOU JUST GO TO MAISIE?? HUH? YOU SEEM TO BE MORE INTERESTED IN HER THAN ME! JUST GO ZAYN. I DONT WANT TO SPEAK TO YOU EVER. goodbye zayn, and good luck" i shouted because i needed to let ou tmy emotions in some way. zayn just stared at me unable to speak

"but fizz, im sor-"

"save it zayn, get out" i whispered

he slowly walked away from my room and turned back occasionally to see if i would change my mind, i just stared at the floor the whole time, he turned around one more time by my door

"goodbye fizz, i love you"