I screwed up my life

The beginning of my life

Part of my life I got all straight A's & B's in all my classes since elementary & middle school, I even made the honor roll, now all I have to do is start college & finish college to start my Career. I just knew that my life was going to be "JUST" perfect that until I been bullied. Being bullied is no laughing matter. People who bully call you numerous names for no reason, take your money, trip you, slap your supplies to the ground & sometimes may attack.

My name is Jessie... J-E-S-S-I-E. I'm in high school now age 15. I've been bullied because of my grades & the way I dressed... so I could not take it anymore, but over the past few nights at my house I decided to change my life up a little. So for the next few days I changed my personality such as my clothes & a little bit of my behavior. The teachers have notice & were disgusted but the popular kids did as well & invite me to there table, but ever since then I've been hanging out with the popular kids & cutting class with them simple as that. But I took my new life a bit further since my friends have been using & talking about marijuana.....I started using marijuana because I felt like I was the outlier, not getting home before my curfew & cursing. I love my new friends they change my life BIG time & I wanted to make it up to them & that will be starting a gang.

The next day on a school day my gang had to wear red & white but I wear black cause I'm the leader. My parents (mostly my mom) have constantly been getting phone calls from my school about my behavior & how they are disgusted about it. Before I was about to leave my house my parents stop me & told me:
Mom-what's up with these numerous phones calls from the school?!
I-I.D.K.
Mom- GIRL you not texting answer me with proper words! I'm tired from those teachers calling this house wasting the phone bill up in here about your behavior!
I-How about don't answer the phone next time then you won't have to worry about it K! Sounds good? cause I think it sounds good (with a one eye wink & a smile on my face)😉. 
----Walked out the door & continue to text my friend---

When I got to school I seen my gang sitting outside by  golden crust. We all talked about our mornings & made jokes about it they all related to my point of view  so I tagged along to there point of views. We made up 3 special routines that we do every morning which is:
- Head to golden crust
- Smoke weed (let out the anger in the back of the school)
- Be late
Whenever we smoke we have no idea what we doing or saying until the feeling starts to fade. We've been scheduling when cops or as we like to call them po-po's drive by the school so we got that schedule down back like taken candy from a baby. We finish smoking within an hour before school started.
---Ding ding there goes the school bell---

While walking into the school hallways I already disobeyed the rules of the school so I had no problem. The gang & I walked, shoved & slapped supplies out of the losers hands & had them pick it up. When first period started I had math first & I sat in the back of the classroom popping gum MAD loud with my feet on top of the desk. A few minutes of the class my math teacher have notice something different about me & was shocked about it. My math teacher walked up to me & whispered in my ear i want you to stay back a little bit after class. When class ended my teacher claim that:
Math teacher- what is going on with you today?
I- none of your business!
Math teacher- ok well you used to get straight A's In my class!
I- yea so!
Math teacher- your attitude is getting out of hand, I'm going to have to report this to the principal!.
I-  ok have fun!!
Math teacher- get out of my classroom!, have a nice day!
I- same to you to bitch!
Math teacher- what did you say? Cause I hope it's not what I think you said?
I- oh I think you know what I said! (Walked out the room)

When  lunch started  the announcement called my name to the principal's office. While arriving at the principle offices I saw my math teacher with the mean look on her face. My principal stated:
Principle- what's going on with you ?
I- what are you talking about?
Principal- I'm talking about you disrespecting your teacher this morning & just for that you have detention! No further answers.
(I got up and left the room)
When I was arriving back down to the cafeteria I sat down at my table and told them what the principle said. As soon as I finish telling them they told me not to go to detention & I said I'm not the fuck.
---Ding ding there goes the bell lunch is over---
My next classes were history then English language arts which basically ended my day. During history & English language art class I did the same behavior as I was in math class earlier. But as for the teachers they notice my behavior, reported it  & called my parents. At the end of the school day the announcement called all names who had to go to detention or else they'll be suspended. I decided NOT to go to detention because my gang were going to smoke & I wanted to be there... couldn't miss that!!!. When I got outside the school my gang was surprised that I didn't go to detention they thought I did anyway, but I was the ring leader of the gang I'm a leader to them. When we finish smoking we all decided to go to a club to drink. When the symptoms started to were off I said:
I- don't we need ID's cause we're all young!!!!
Gang Friend- don't worry man i have a friend that will let us in.
I- coolllllll
We were on our way it took us about 2 hours to get there, we choose the best one that sells the cheapest & the best drinks. When we got there my heart was pounding real fast like the race track I never drank before... I did not want to be a punk so I did it anyway. After all the negative stuff that we did.... We all left & went home. When I got home I closed the door behind me & my mom scared me from behind and said:
MOM: what the fuck is wrong with you?