Depredation

Eric

I look down at my arm and see my scars are slowly starting too heal.
But I'm not healing.
It's all still there.
That pain inside.

You said it would go aways soon.
That it would take no time at all.
But I guess that was just an other lie.

It's okay I got used to people lieing to me.
Your not the first and definitely won't be the last.

It's kinda sad how easy I trust people. Then I wonder why so many people have backstabed me so many times.

I won't say that no one understands me beacause when I read all these poems and stories everyone sais that "no one understands them." Yet there is a more than millions of reposts and comments saying they feel the same.

I know some people probably have it worce.
Okay I know that alot of people have it worce.

But eveyone is different.
Everyone has there reasons.
There excuses.

This guy actually talked too me today.
He asked if a cat attached my arm or something.
I just gave him a sad smile and pull down my sleaves once again.
When I started walking away I heard him and his friends laughing.

They think it's funny.
Oh I started school again by the way.
Yah... That's uh. Great.

I honestly don't feel the need to go.
Not like I'm going too pass anyway.
I don't know why I even try sometimes.

I guess it's cause of you.
I'm trying too prove too you that
I'm okay.
I'm fine.
But I'm not.
Not anymore.

Yah I used to be stupid but, you know then we broke up....
Oh sorry then I dumped your poor ass.

I like to point that out.
It makes me feel stronger.
Like I did something good for once in my life.
For me.
Not for anyone else.
But for me.

I was trying too help myself.
I really was.
But then people call me selfish.
So I stoped caring.
And trying.

I am on my way too school and I feel anxiety flow up inside of me.
You still come to my bus stop.
So I have too see your face.
I'm really not in the mood for that.

I'm finally at my bus stop and I can't see you.

Thank god.

I get on my bus and get to other school too start my day.

------------END OF SCHOOL DAY------------

Once I get home and drop my heavy bag already full of homework on the ground I hear my mom yelling out for me.

"Hi babygirl, how was your day?" She asks.
"It was good."
"Just good?" She questions.
"Yeh just good mom."

I start too walk too the stairs but my mom stops me.

"Uhm sweetheart... You have a guest waiting in your room." She sounds almost apologetic.
"Uhhh.... Okay mom..." I can't help but hesitate.

I start too walk down the stairs and I hear my mom yell out;
"Be careful! .... Love you..."
"Uh okay mom love you too...." I try too not sound confused but it was probably very aviouce.

I finally reach my room and I slowly open my door looking inside.

NO.
It's him.
He is just sitting there on my bed.

WHAT GIVES HIM THE RIGHT TOO SIT ON MY BED LET ALONE BE IN MY HOUSE!!!

"Uh hi." He sais
"What the fuck are you doing here?" He doesn't deserve for me too be polite.
"Your mom said I could stay for supper...." He trails off

WHY IS HE TELLING ME THIS?? WHY IS HE HERE?!?!

All I can manage too do is stair blanckly at him.
My mind is such a mess.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm speechless.

"I....I missed you..." He said quickly.
"I rather you not stay for supper." I blurt out.
"But..Roseab-" I cut him before he can say my full name.

He would always say my full name. He was the only one that did. He was the only one I let.

"I don't want too hear it!" I scream.
"Please. Rosabella ... I know I hurt you. I know we both changed but please give me an other chance! I changed I swear!..."

Yeah! More bullshit... Just what I needed.

"You weren't at school today." I randomly say.
"Yeah... I was uhm getting ready..."
"For what exactly?!?"
"You'll have too wait and see Rosabella."

Everytime he sais my name it feels like someone is stabbing me right though my heart.

"Kay well I gotta make a call." I say and push my phone agaisnt my ear before he can protest.

Fuck. Answer. Answer. Answer... Answer ....yahh!!!!

"Hey babe, what's up?" Daniels voice comforts me.
"Can you please come too supper tonight?... I need you... Really bad." I ask quickly.
"Uh.. Yeh sure babe what's wrong?"
"Nothing! Just please be here ASAP!" I snap back.
"Okay okay .... I'll be there soon love you."
"I love you too!" I try and say very loudly and all lovy dovy like so HE can hear me nice and clear.

The I quickly hang up and turn back too that asshole.

"Who was that?" He asks
"Oh don't worry.... You'll meet him soon..." I add with a smirk.
"Him?!?" I hear him mutter under his breath in an angry tone and I can't help the fear race through my body.

He can get really bad when he's angry.

Soon we are all at the diner table and I go answer the door for Daniel.
As he walks in he kisses me and greets my parents by kissing them on the checks.
But I see Daniels face change when he see's him.
Something like anger flashed though his eyes and I could feel the tension.

"Uhm! So Eric you are here for something.... We where just waiting for everyone too be here .. So go ahead... " My mom sais breaking the ice.
"Thank you Ms.Wallis..."

He turns too me and gets down on one knee... He reaches into his pocket and...

NO NO NO NO HE CANT PROPOSE PLEASE NO!

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