Listen » l.s

three • pain

You come back crying
screaming my name
yelling sorry
I don't forgive you though

You're a mess
I know
because your hand feels weak
in mine

"I couldn't tell
I hate myself already
I don't want them to hate me
too
please forgive me"

"I love you
Lou
please forgive me"

For what you've done?
you cheated on me
you lying asshole
for how long?
I remember
the look on your face
when you were
mind me
doing her
you didn't sound sorry then

"Lou"
you suck in a deep breath
"I love you
Lou
please"

I can't
I don't want to
and I won't

I hear someone enter the room
It sounds like a girl
with heels

"Wh-what are you
doing here?"
I hear you say
you sound scared
afraid
regretful

"I'm here for you"
she says
I knew that voice
I hated that voice
it belonged to the pretty girl
you screwed

Go
go with her
kiss her
sleep with her
again
just to prove to me
you can

"What the hell
are you here for?"
you ask
"I don't want you
I don't want you here"

I want to scream
to yell
to break anything
and everything
but I can't

How could you do this?
one minute
you had her on top of you
the next
you want her gone?
what kind of a man are you
are you going to do the same
to me?

Are you going to
screw me over
and then leave
and make me go away
shut me out
so that you can find another
someone as vulnerable
as me
to repeat the process?

What kind of a man-
correction
monster
are you?

It hurts me even more
to think
that you have
a
heart
like
that

You are a horrible person
you've caused me pain
you've cause misery
I hate you

You leave the room
with her
pain takes over
like a tidal wave

And of course
I
drown