The Opening Act (H.S) {Completed - Editing}

So Much Love

I miss Harry.

I wanted nothing more than to just be next to him. It's been two months since I left for tour. It's now April. He hasn't been able to visit more than a few times. The first time was for a week, the second for five days, and the last two times only for a weekend at a time. It's been almost three weeks since he's been with me.

Being able to travel all over the country and have my own headlining tour is so damn incredible. Being able to sing my songs and meet the people that listen to them is an indescribable feeling. Every show has been awesome. I've met so many amazing people and created so many memories. I've grown really close with everybody on my team, too. It was nice to know that even though I was far away from Harry, my friends, and family that I still had people around me supporting me. I really got lucky with finding and hiring my team.

After awhile though, I started to feel like some sort of robot. Every day started becoming the same. Wake up, eat, shower, hit the road, eat some more, do some work, do a show, find a hotel, sleep, and start over again. It feels so repetitive. It's like there's adventure, but at the same time everyday was lacking it. It's weird and kind of hard to describe.

There were three shows left; New Hampshire, Maine, and Toronto. Only a week longer until I'm able to see Harry again. I just got off stage and now I'm on my way to a hotel. The car ride doesn't take long, since we're able to avoid traffic by going on back roads. We're in New York.

Harry's been back and forth between London and the U.S. He's spent a lot of time with his family and a lot of time just relaxing, which makes me happy. He deserves to be able to just be at home and have a good break. I just wish he could be with me more, as selfish as that sounds.

Once I'm in my hotel room, I collapse onto the bed with my journal. I pull out my phone before I open it, deciding to post a picture of Harry and I because of how much I miss him and how much my heart hurts being so far from him.

MissAvaMae: my happiness. my sanity. my love. my heart. my whole damn world. I miss you :(

I pick up my journal and get comfortable after plugging my phone in next to the bed. Harry had written letters to me in it and he told me that there was one for every night I did a show. The journal was one of the reasons I hadn't gone insane without seeing him in months.

'Hi baby.

New York. One of my favourite places, I reckon. There's so much to see and so much to love. Now that you're there, there's even more to love. Promise me you won't sit in your room the whole time? Promise me you'll explore? If you need places to visit just call me, I could give you a whole list of places. Especially a list of restaurants .. even with having catering Niall and Liam had to try everything.

I hope your show went wonderfully. I'm sure you smashed it like always. I love seeing pictures of you so happy and seeing you be able to meet your fans and make them smile too. I miss seeing you perform. I miss you.