rain fell from the sky but nothing was going to stop it from hppening. i knew i had to die before everybody i loved left like my parents. it was a month ago wene my mom had died and my dad moved to new york in hope of changing his life. it was like he didn't care that mom had been murdered. he just told the police it was nothing to look into wich made me wonder what was up with him. tow days later i found a blood stain on his shirt and a knife in his closet. i knew he had murdered mom but the next day the knife and bloody shirt was no were to be found.
today was the day i had enough stength to pull the triger and i would at midnight. that was the time my mom died so that would be the time i died. i never feared death i knew there was no use i would die anyway but now i would die on my own terms.
i could hear the drip of whater coming from the window in my room. i lived with my brother matt who was alredy 20 and didn't see what i saw. he didn't see the knife or blood and thought i was crazy but he knew there was no use for a corctional facility. i sta there in my room twirling the pocket knife that my mom gave me wene i was 12. my weopon of chice for suicide.
i had scars on my arm from trying to kill myself but i never had thought of using my knife. now instead of my arm i would cut my throught.wene the clock said 11:50 i jumped out of bed and down the stairs to the back yard. i imediatly took out the knife and as carefully as posible slit my thraot. it was painfull and i let out a scream not knowing how loud it was going to be and then matt burst through the back door and gave me a look of disapointment and fear. i could tell it was hurting him to see me lying on the floor bleeding to death. i saw him take out his cell and then i passed out.
i woke up in the hospital with my brother a nurse and two other guys talking to my broher. once they saw me try to sit up they all stared at me. matt rushed over and huged me gently." i love you jade. please don't scare me like that again"
the guy in the corner smiled at me and said" bree we have decided i......." wene the other guy punched him in the gut
"let her rest before she knows" he said while the other guy gave him a dirty look.
"tell me what!" i screamed whanting to know.
"you are now in custody of mis.pery's mental corectional facility"he said looking down at his shoes like they were so interesting.
"what whay?" i half screamed half mumbled. "it's for your own good jade" matt said staring at me knowing that i knew why.
"let her rest you can say your good beys right now and tomarow you two men can take her to the hospital" the nurse barked at the guys.
matt said good bey in a hushed tone and walked out the room mumbling. i sat there for the rest of the time until the nurse left and saw my sweatshirt in the corner. i stood up slowly and grabed it before ploping on the bed again. i looked through my pockets relived that they hadn't thought of empetying the pockets and found my i-pod. i turned it on and found the song that my mom used to sing to me. thousand years by christina perri. it started playing at the chores and i sang along.
i slowly fell asleep listening to my music but turned it of not knowing i had the charger in my seweater and thinking i had to reserve the batery.
i woke up later in the arms of one of the guys who saw me yesterday. he was carying me to the car that waited to take me tho the mental place and i decided not to fuss. he sat me in there and shut the door. we drove for an hour until we got there. it was a depressing looking building with small windows, a large metal gate and watch posts that made it look like prison then a place to make kids not hate their lives. the nice guy grabbed my hand and told me it was all fine. if that was true i wouln't have to be taken to this place. wene i got in a guy shoved some clothes into my hands and pointed to a room for me to change in. i put the clothes on and slid my sweatshirt over it and then wene i walked out the tallest guy tried to pull it off me as i walked past him. i puled away from him and bit his hand so he would let go. "the sweatshirt stays or i bite your hand off" i warned them all. the led me to a room that had two beds, a deck and a tv. the youngest guy walked up to me and started talking to me. "hi i'm jake and i'm kind of like the helper for you guys so if you need anything let me know" he said with a sincer smile. they all left and i couldn't help but think that i would be here forever.
aouthors note:sorry if it's a little strange but i got the idea from a dream and thought hey i could write a story sorry if it's lame i tried my best.
