You were mine once

After the love Chapter 5

missing someone may be the greatest pain.
losing someone is even worse.
all at the same time?! you crush.
you fall on the floor of you room.
you can't breathe.
you don't check your phone cause you don't want to see what's next.
I knew it was going down.
I didn't want to face it though.
I stayed up for 3 hours crying,
I am shattered.
I couldn't breathe.
you know it's love if you are too weak to get up off you're floor.
my heart was pounding in my chest.
I only had myself to keep my company.
I had to tell myself I'm strong.
I had to tell myself it's life.
I'll miss him.
but I need to get on my bed and sleep.
it's 3am and my eyes are blood shot.
I manage to lay down and sleep.
but right when I woke,
I cried. unprepared.
the tears wouldn't stop.
the night before was a failure.
Now He will always be my weak spot.