What Goes On In My Head

Do you ever wonder what it would be like if u were a killer? Do ever wonder what it will feel like if u just stabbed someone or slit their throats and watched them bleed out? Do you ever wonder what it would be like to watch the life of someone leave their eyes? I do all the time so many times all I can imagen is what would a person look like if they were dead or stabbed? I just love thinking of many ways to kill a person its so fun to think of I just wish it want illegal to kill someone. Just imagen impaling someone with a spear or shooting them in the head it just makes me all happy inside do you know what I mean. After all there is no such thing as normal after all what is normal for the spider is chaos for the fly. Which means what is normal for you is chaos for someone else. Also, that someone else will think that you need to be looked up because they don't understand you at all. So, who cares if most people don't understand you? you don't need them to understand you when you have the voices in your head and the ghost and inhuman monsters as your friends. Who needs to be sane when you weren't born with any sanity you were born completely insane so you can see the world in a totally different view than everyone else? Have you ever wanted to meet a famous murderer I have I want to ask what made them the way they are and if they ever thought of what they were doing was wrong? I want to ask if they ever thought what their life would be like if they didn't kill anyone or did what they did and if they would have been happy that way? Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you gave up your life to be a murderer? What the rush will feel like if you killed someone and took there life away? Do you ever wonder if you would love the feeling of controlling someone's life in your hands being able to choose whether they lived or died? What if u were a natural killer and you never knew it what would you do if you found out. This is what goes on in my head all the time no wonder people tell me I need help but I don't want help I'm fine the way I am. No one cane ever change me because I love the way I am and who I am.