I'm cutting my life line.
And picking a coffin.
Choose my white dress.
And the flowers.
For I am to die.
Say you're goodbye.
As they hammer in the nails.
And shut the lid over my face for good.
It's dark and dusty but I am ok.
For this is what he wanted.
And my wish is his command.
I lost something amazing.
Because of my own selfish greed.
And now look where it landed me.
In a deep dark grave 6ft under.
Now he walks all over me day after day.
Not realizing I can hear ever word he says.
I'm drowning in my own pool of pity.
Wishing I could go back just one time.
Just one to feel your lips on mine.
And the heat of each other in our bed.
As I fall deeper into this dark depressing hole.
I feel people I love try to grab me from falling deeper.
Yet I thrash out and hurt them as well trying to get away from the light.
I like my darkness it hides my scars and holds me tight.
And I feel like it will keep holding until I can take its place and become.
Darkness itself.
I harm the ones who help me the most but am unaware for.
The blindfold I wear and can't hear over the chains that hold me.
