The monster in me

Everyone has bruises under their skin but yours were different

They were beautifully painful and aesthetically magnificent

They tell your story with no need for words

I'm sure these can portray your world

And when you look in the mirror and all you see is ache

You start wondering how could your smiles be that fake

You disguess yourself and there's no artistic way to say

That you were yourself's enemy all the way

You can't find a single positive trait in yourself

You can't admit that your standards were on a high shelf

And you sit here denying all sort of adulations

And that's when you decide that you need a salvation

You start looking for solutions but there's nowhere to go

Everything you do can't seem more wrong

The only way out is taking away your life

And just then you see a string of light

Finally in that labyrinth I call my life

Something brightned my way and brought back my sight

But that light never seemed to last

And then I find myself back in darkness fast

They say there's a promise for the ones who hold on

But that promise is apparently taking too long

You're here breathless, counting your scars

Wondering how much you'll last going that far

Deciding to do nothing but disappear

Doesn't work when you have eyes that sheer

And through all that, no one notices when you want them to

But hey, maybe god's timer will be better for you

So you wake up in the morning

Trying to convince yourself

That there's a lot out there to see

And nothing is on an unreachable shelf

You convince yourself that it's a beautiful world

You try so hard to get yourself out of your bed

There's a reason to get up you just can find the words

To tell yourself that the check is paid by all the tears you've shed

You were talking quietly, afraid to wake the monster up

For your surprise, it has been watching you sleep

And then you wake up and realize that it's the only thing that does

And that's when I fell in love with the monster in me

We became unseperable and everyone could tell

They couldn't tell us apart as well

He lived through me, i feeded him every day

I gave him all he needed so that he'll forever stay

And now he's defining me, you can see it through my eyes

I was terrified but turned out that time really flies

It's been 3 years and the monster's still here

I guess we got married and our child was fear