Give it your all
Cuz in life and in love you believe in it's all or nothing at all
So you fight through the tears while he's never there
Crash! I hear as my mom and her boyfriend continue to fight. I put the pillow over my head to try and muffle out the noise but, it doesn't work. I still hear them cussing and shouting at each other and more things being flung. Tears start to form in my eyes. Dad why aren't you ever here for me and when I need you most? After I thought that the tears fell freely. I close my eyes in another attempt to drown out the noise again.
Catching your fall
Catching your fall
Put your heart on the line cause you didn't know
That the love you found was fools gold
I just want someone to love and care for me. The people in my life that are supposed to do that don't. My family just tear me apart and make me feel useless.
You deserve better girl
I can see that your hurting girl
I can't begin to understand the way you feel
It might just take a little time for your heart to heal
And girl I know that I can't take away your pain
But I can be your Band-Aid
But I can be your Band-Aid
Straight to the heart
Like medicine I'ma be right here
Erasing your scars
It hurts so bad that the people who are suppose to love me don't. I don't know how to cope with it so I started cutting myself. Which makes me even more ugly than I already think I am because it leaves scars behind but, I can't stop. I trace the scars on my wrist with my fingertips, my eyes still shut tightly.
I could cover you from all the rain
Be your protection
You'll never hurt again
Never hurt again
Put your heart on the line cause you didn't know
That the love that you found was fools gold
You deserve better girl
I can see that your hurting girl
I can't begin to understand the way you feel
It might just take a little time for your heart to heal
And I know that I can't take away your pain
But I be your Band-Aid
But I can be your Band-Aid
It's Double R
Tell me where it hurts love
When I do open my eyes the yelling is still going on and my eyes land on my Mindless Behavior poster. I could only afford to get one. I look at their smiling faces and I smile back. That's the reason I love Mindless Behavior. They can make me smile when it seems like I'm unable to. Suddenly, the yelling gets even louder and I stop smiling.
Let me dry your little tears
Clean your wounds up
Baby this was meant to be
It's just a shame it took pain to lead you to me
I'll take the pressure off
And relieve the pain
Maybe I should just end my life now before this gets to far. I don't have any hope of getting any where because of where I am and my situation. Nobody wants me or will ever want me. I'm just fat and ugly.
Baby wounds and all
I'll make 'em fade away
I can't begin to understand the way you feel
It might just take a little time to heal
I get up off of my bed and look between my mattress for my pocket knife. I sit on the for a few more minutes with the knife in my hand thinking on whether or not I should do this. I twirl the knife in my hand then the yelling got even worse as if they were right outside my door.
And girl I know that I can't take away you pain
But I can be your Band-Aid
But I can be your Band-Aid
I'm here for YOU baby!
I just wanted someone to love me. To ease my pain and tell me things were going to be alright. I just wanted a....
Band-Aid
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Band-Aid
FanfictionThoughts of suicide and a family that doesn't care and all she wanted was a Band-Aid.