I read somewhere that depression is like you are drowning
but u can see everyone around you breathing
It chokes you, making you paralyzed,
stealing every ounce of happiness u have
until your just surrounded by bleakness
It takes you by surprise of course,
not feeling the grasp of its translucent fingers until it's too late,
until you are with your friends and family but can't find it in you to smile, until you find your self staring at the wall for 3 hours contemplating why you are not valuable enough,
why God didn't bless you with a "more beautiful" physical appearance, more talents, more ways to be useful and in return...loved
You heart feels weak
feeling the load getting heavier and heavier
wanting to just drop it and run but you can't
You look around you
hoping that someone can see that you are drowning
praying that they can save you but,
every time they ask you how you are, you say "ok" and that satisfies them.
Every time I see them I want to scream
"don't you see that I'm broken!" "Don't you know that I'm lost and need someone to help me find my way?"
"Can't you see that I'm drowning and
I CANT BREATHE!?!"
But I don't, because who would care anyway..............
