Start again (a spencer reid fanfic)

Nine: Insomnia and nose bleeds

REID'S P.O.V

"And I found you with a bottle of wine, head in the curtains and heart like the fourth of July. You swore and said "we are not, we are not shining stars" this I knew, I never said we are" ~Fun.

The dreadful ringing in my ears makes it impossible to hear what Katrin is trying to say from three feet away, sprawled out on the ground with blood dribbling from her ears and dropping on the path from her nose.
"What?" I say, probably louder than I mean to
"Are you okay?" I see her lips form the words but don't hear a thing as she speaks
"Yeah, I think so. Are you okay?" I say and she gives a brief nod before trying to stand up. She only moves an inch before she collapses back to the ground.
"Ugh" I can hear now, maybe too well judging by the way her groan gives me a slight headache.
"Where's Poppy?" She asks, frantic and I point to the small figure that's curled into the hollow under her rib cage.
"Thank god you're okay" she whispers as she hugs the little girl to her hip.
"Wha-" a horrible pain slams my head as I stand up and I kneel back down on the ground, furiously rubbing my temples.
"Is he okies?" The little girl- Poppy?- asks, stumbling over to me and putting her hand against mine.
"Yeah Pip-Pop, he's okay" Katrin says pulling out her phone and checking that it will still turn on
"I'm calling Hotch" she mumbles, stumbling off the ground and looking at what is left of her house. Which, in all honesty, isn't much. A lot of debris is lying around her yard and on the street and I discover shards of glass embedded in my skin.
What did she do to deserve this?
"My mommy and daddy are red" Poppy tells me and I frown
Red?
"Bring the team and call 911" I hear Katrin say before she walks over to me.
My head still pounds and I squeeze my eyes shut to block out what little light is still left from today.
"Are you okies?" Poppy asks me, pulling my hands from my face
"I have a headache" I moan
"Is that normal?" Katrin asks before throwing up all over the ground. Poppy hugs her leg
"Is Miss Katrin okies?"
"Yes, I'm fine" Katrin grumbles, wiping her mouth on her sleeve.
"Ow!" I yell as the sound of multiple sirens suddenly amplifies the pain in my head.
"Wat the hell happened here?" I hear Emily ask
"My house was blown up" Katrin explains, scooping Poppy up in her arms where the little girl proceeds to bury her face in her neck.
"I can see that but.... Why?" Emily  enquires and Katrin shakes her head "I feel really sick Em"
"Let's get you to an ambulance"JJ and Emily guid her to the vehicle by the side of the road with Poppy clinging to her like a baby animal.
"Hey Kid, are you okay?" Morgan asks kneeling in front of me
"My head" I groan and he and Hotch help me up and over to where Katrin is sitting on the edge of the ambulance doorway, Poppy still clinging to her like a vice.
"I have absolutely nothing Reid" she whispers, knowing any noise louder will hurt my head
"You have the team" I say and a tear slides slowly down her cheek.
"Katrin you have your boyfriend too" Poppy giggles
Boyfriend?
"Boyfriend?" Katrin asks Poppy and she points to me
"The one with de hair" she holds up a lock of my brown hair and Katrin shakes her head
"He's just a friend Poppy"
Poppy sits down in between us
"When's my mommy picking me up?" She asks and Katrin hugs her
"Your Mommy's not here sweetie, your mommy can't get you anymore"
"But I want her"
"I know baby" the little girl falls into Katrin's arms.
"Trust me, I know" K mumbles to no one in particular as the ambulance doors slam shut.

And no one in particular replies...

KATRIN'S P.O.V

"Mild concussion but otherwise you seem perfectly fine" Hotch says as the team crowds around my hospital bed, setting my scans down on the bedside table and joining the others.
Reid's still off being scanned for any "head trauma".
"Everyone on your street other than you and Poppy was murdered" JJ says as she plays with Poppy on the edge of my bed
"Why do you think that is?"
I look up to find seven pairs of eyes on me
"I don't know, but I'm gonna find out".

Spencer comes stumbling down the hallway with an IV stuck in his arm and a nurse at his heals.

"Kid are you okay?" Morgan asks and he just shakes his head and crawls into the bed beside mine

"Migraine"
"Oh, its been so long since-" Garcia trails off when she realizes something
"What?" I ask confusedly
"Last time I had a migraine was before I met Maeve, its okay Garcia you can talk abou- can someone turn the lights off?" Reid shields his eyes with his arm and I look at him solemnly
"Spence the lights are off"
He looks up briefly before rubbing at his eyes intensely.
"Reid-"
"Its probably just the shock from the bomb" I tell Emily who's frowning in concern.
"You both have to stay in overnight but you'll be released tomorrow. What happens then, I don't know" Hotch says as a buzzer sounding signals visiting hours are over- what time is it?.
Then something hits me.
"They left Poppy so I'd have a reason to go and see what they'd done" I gush as JJ is walking out the door with Poppy
"JJ?"
"Yeah?"
"What's gonna happen to Poppy?"
"I'm taking her for tonight but tomorrow, I don't know".
I nod as she walks out the door.
Spencer groans and I look over at him
"If it helps I could close the blinds, although it is nighttime"
"No, I'll just go to sleep. Try anyway" he rolls onto his side and I do the same, only I burst into silent tears, which of course makes my nose bleed..

REID'S P.O.V

1:00AM

Sleep comes, but it doesn't. I'm asleep for blocks of... If I'm lucky approximately 10 minutes. But I'm not lucky, and in the end I roll over with my eyes wide open.
Katrin isn't in bed anymore, instead she's standing by the window, hugging her arms around her body, occasionally wiping her nose along one which always comes away with a red stain along it.
After a moment she turns to face me, hoping the dark will hide the fact she's crying and that her nose is still bleeding.
"Are you okay?" Stupid question...
"Yeah, I'm fine. I could- I could feel your eyes on me, that's why I turned around" she says, pausing to wipe blood from her nose again before turning back around and looking out at the darkness.
"Did you know emetephobia is the fear of vomiting? Or that Thantaphobia is the fear of losing someone you love?" She asks, her words sounding almost jumbled toward the end
"What are you doing?" I question of her ramblings
"Talking so I don't go insane" she tells me.
"Where am I gonna go Spence? I don't have parents to live with, I don't have family at all and apart from you guys I don't have friends" she climbs back into bed and an idea hits me.
But because she's already shut her eyes and turned away from me I decide to suggest it tomorrow. Eventually, I too fall asleep, but I don't dream of anything pleasant. Instead I dream about every time someone's ever left me.
. . .

A/N: Sorry these past chapters haven't really been the best, but I really wanted to get this part done so I can get into the actual story part. Read, Vote, Comment ~ Spencer-the-kat

P.S: IGNORE ANY SPELLIND AND/OR GRAMMATICAL ERRORS, COS I'M A LAZY ASS OK?