Not Good Enough (James McVey/Connor Ball - Jonnor) (1/2)

Chapter 13 - She's Back

Brad's POV:

'What do you mean?' I ask confused and Connor looks at me 'why am I gay Brad?'. I cross my arms 'its normal for someone to be gay Con, has someone said something to you?'. Connor looks at the floor and shakes his head. I kneel down to his height and I rub his back 'please tell me Con'. Connor sits up and rubs his eyes furiously trying to get rid of the tears. I pull his hands away slowly and pull him into a hug 'Con?'. 'Please don't tell anyone' he says quietly. 'I promise I won't' I say. 'Joe told me that it would be my fault that you would all get hate, he told me not to tell anyone besides you guys' Connor whispers. 'Connor, you wont be the reason we get hate. The main reason we'll get hate is because we won't be someones type' I sigh. 'Joe was a little harsh there, I'll have a word with him in private if you like?' I ask and Connor shakes his head 'no, its ok'. I sigh and nod 'ok, but remember your not the reason we get hate'. Connor nods.

Connor's POV:

I nod as Brad pulls me into a hug. I close my eyes and hug him back. 'Connor?' someones voice makes me jump and me and Brad look towards the doorway and we see James 'whats up Con?' James runs over and Brad smiles 'would you like me to say, or are you ok to do it Con?'. I smile 'I can do it'. 

As Brad leaves, I explain the same thing as I did to Brad and James does not look happy. 'James?' I ask and he looks at me and says 'that was uncalled for, I'm sorry Con but I think I may need to talk with Joe because thats annoyed me, you should be able to be yourself and make your own decisions'. I sigh and look down 'I suppose'. James holds my hand 'I promise Con, I won't upset him or anything, I'll just tell him how hurt I feel because of what hes said to you'. I nod.

As James stands up to go and talk to Joe, the door knocks. We notice no one is going to answer it, so James heads to the door instead and I sit here and wait. After a while, I decide to go and see what's taking soo long. As I groggily make my way to the hallway and look at the front door, I freeze as I see Kirsty locking lips with James. I stutter 'J-J-J-James?'. Kirsty pulls away and James looks at me shocked 'it wasn't me, it was Kirsty'. I turn around and run up to my room and slam the door behind me. 

Brad's POV:

I hear someone go running upstairs and me, Lauren, Tristan and Luisa enter the hallway and see James and Kirsty. 'What happened?' I ask. James looks at Kirsty and says 'she kissed me in front of Connor'. I cross my arms 'really?'. They both nod 'get her out of our house or I'm calling the police and second of all, can I talk to you James please?'. James nods and follows me into the kitchen, as we enter I hear Lauren and Luisa shouting at Kirsty as someone heads up the stairs to Con, I presume its Tristan. 

James stands silently and looks at the floor awkwardly 'James, tell me the truth please. Why did Con run up the stairs?'. James sighs 'its because Kirsty kissed me'. Brad sighs 'oh Con, hes gone through a lot these past few days, James nods in agreement. 'I know why he ran off when Kirsty kissed me' James speaks up and I raise my eyebrow. 'Why?' I ask. 'Me and Con are going out' James speaks out quietly 'but don't tell him I told you yet, he doesn't want anyone to know yet'. I nod understanding. 'Why did she kiss you?' I ask and James shrugs 'I don't know, I kept telling her to go away, but she got fed up, stepped in and kissed me. Trust Con to walk in at that time too'. I sigh loudly 'I hate her'. James nods in agreement too. 'I'm a little mad at Joe too' James says and I nod. 'I've persuaded Con to let me talk to him' James says and I smile 'can I come too as Con wouldn't let me go'. James smiles and nods. 

Connor's POV:

A knock on the door makes me jump and I shout 'go away'. The door opens and I see Tristan. I collapse onto my knees and Tristan runs over to me and hugs me 'it ok Con'. 'Its not' I croak out and Tristan rubs my back. I stand up slowly and wipe my eyes 'I'm fine Tris, don't worry about me'. I sit down on my bed and Tristan sighs 'Con, these past few days have been hard for you'. I lay down and sigh 'I cant take it anymore Tris'. 'Hey now, you cant give up on us. You're doing well and it'll all be over soon' Tristan sits next to me. 'Every time I feel myself getting happier, something bad happens and ruins me, my mood and my day even more' I cry. 

Tristan lays down next to me 'what happened between Kirsty and James?'. I shake my head 'James and Kirsty were locking lips'. Tristan's eyebrows furrow 'wait, but what about you and James?' Tristan's eyes widen 'oops, I know nothing'. I roll my eyes 'I take it he told you'. Tristan nods 'sorry'. I sigh 'its ok, you would've found out one day anyway'. Tristan sits up 'I don't know why James did that'. I shrug my shoulders 'me neither, I think I need some fresh air' I say sitting up and walking out of the room. Tristan follows me 'please just go out in the back garden Con'. I stop at the front door 'Tristan, I need a walk too'. I open the front door and Tristan grabs my hand 'Con, please'. I sigh 'sorry, I'll be back Tris'. Tristan sighs and I smile the best I can 'text me ok Con?'. I smile and nod before closing the front door and sighing.

James' POV:

I absolutely hate Kirsty. She wouldn't go away and then she kissed me in front of Connor. 'James, how long have you 2 been secretly dating?' Brad asks and I sigh 'just earlier on we have'. Tristan comes walking in breathing heavily as if he is worried and Luisa asks 'Tris, whats up?'. Tristan has watery eyes as if hes going to cry and he says 'I'm such an idiot'. I stand up and walk over to him 'Tris, calm down, whats happened?'. 'Don't be mad please' he pleads and I smile 'I promise, wheres Con?'. Tristan closes his eyes 'I let him go out for a walk on his own, I'm sorry'. I pause and say 'its ok Tris, but we need to find him now, I don't think hes stable enough to be on his own'.