Dealing with life

I hate Confusion

I never know what's going on with anything ... I'm never fully continually aware of what's going on ... There are a few people who break this unconscious slumber of confusion ... I feel so alive in there presence .. but other than that I feel like just a brain washed clone ... My senses heighten ... Also a funny thing about me and confusion is when I'm Beating someone up for something , it's super clear , not a haze of bullshit. When the people I do trust start to confuse me... I start to freak out . I feel like I'm being crushed and my heart either stops or Beats way too fast . I can barely breath. Its painful . I overthink everything and the voices don't make it better . I wish they would shut up . I'm constantly confused at life . like this rant your probably confused as hell , But something you gotta know about me is I'm not normal I'm a freak , I'm not normal , I am Alien to this world you call Society . A wolf in sheeps clothing Breeds Deception confusion and Grief . Don't device me.. please .. I just want to be sure about one thing ... Love