The Little Scared Girl.

It's All My Fault.

Damon's P.O.V.

Once a wised man said :
"Don't let your emotions distract you from doing what needs to be done. Control your emotions or your emotions will control you"

This quote seems to be lame before but right now, on this very moment I realise how much this quote means.

My mind is playing with me, my face turned cold and I started to struggle my thoughts : What did I do? What will I do now? Sh*t sh*t sh*t Damon how can you do something this stupid.

These same thoughts continued to travel in my mind and I didn't even realise that my hand was on Alex's mouth in order not make her yell or scream pushing her against the wall while Jackson was still at the door knocking and calling out my name repeatedly.

Yes Jackson.
I replied..
And meanwhile did Shhhhh to Alex cause she was being very uneasy.

Have you seen Alex?
Jackson asked and I could tell his voice was screaming outloud in tension.
What should I tell Jackson that your girlfriend is right here with me and we just had an awesome kiss.

Nah! I didn't.
I said and turn my face to meet Alex eyes which was about to break into tears so I added
But if you do, Say my hello.
And gave her a wink.

I don't want her to freak out, I myself am ashamed on my own act. I don't want her to hate me but at the same time I don't want Jackson to hate me either. I am so stuck.

Damon I'm serious man. Just let me know if you see her, Ok?
Jackson said and there I heard his footsteps leaving the corridor which made my nerves go calm.

I took my hand off her mouth and took a step back in order to take a deep breath. I saw Alex taking deep breath too, while my mind again started struggling in those same thoughts.

I lay on the bed and move my fingers through my hairs and whispered
This was fun.
And chuckle cause it was actually fun, and that kiss was really something, this very moment made me forget all my pains and misery. But instead of whisper it came out loud which was not so good cause I can see Alex face went pailed in worry.

What the hell was that?
Alex said in a really angry tone making me realize that what an appropriate thing I just said few seconds ago.

What that?
I smiled, stood up from the bed and started walking towards the door thinking what I have to say to her. Cause I was blanked out and I don't have anything to tell her.

Neither I can't tell her that I have feelings for her and become a cause of Jackson's pain nor I can let her go away from me.
Damn I don't know what do do or how to act.

Don't you dare to leave before answering my questions.
She rushed to the door before I can leave so I lift my hand in the air to her sudden act.

Fine go ahead.
I replied. As I knew I can't leave the room now, and I have to give answers.

What was that for? Why did you kiss me?
She cross her hands around her chest and take a deep breath.

I decided to be a bad boy because that's what I am and let Jackson be the hero cause the same thought again came in my mind that she's better without me
so I replied
It's not like you haven't kissed anyone before.
C'mon it was just one stupid move.
I forced chuckle but inside I actually stabbed my heart with a sharp knife.

And I left the room cause I couldn't make a face to face look with her. I just can't face her after saying something like that,
What the hell you were thinking Damon. My conscious asked me.