9/5/13

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by Clmsgal2

by Clmsgal2

Dear friend,

Today has been a mixture of sad and happy. I slept in and got my dad late for work, by accident.

When I got in I felt really awkward, I don't know why, but I felt like busting down and crying. I haven't been acting the same lately. None of my friends notice, though. And if they do they haven't asked if I was ok.

The best song to fit how I feel is 'Give Me Love' by Ed Sheeran, I haven't stopped listening to it, as a matter of fact I'm listening to it now.

Then at break our 6th years were leaving and it made me wonder 'what will I do when I leave?' 'Will all my hard work be worth it' and 'Will I still have my friends?'

Sometimes, it hurts, to think.. About the future and the past. It gives me headaches as well with those 'what if' scenarios that play in my head.

Rose sat with me, Nicolette and Danielle, Eleanor wasn't in today. I wonder if she's ok. Anyway, rose told me that she doesn't forgive me, but she wants to talk to me?

I was happy by then. I then had to open my big mouth and have Drake hate me. We're friends now, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

I also went for a run in my quickest time yet, I ran about 1 1/2 Km in under 5 minutes. It's my personal best, I'm positive I'm taking up running, it helps me stop playing the violin (self-harming)

I also think Drake might like me back! Which I am ecstatic about!

I have to go, I'll write to you as soon as I can, thank you.

Love always,

Emma xx