Angel to Demon

the feeling

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Castiel X Reader

FANFICTION CHAPTER ONE.

I yawned slowly sitting up to see the other side of the bed empty like always.... Cas always left during the night. He had to help Dean and Sam. I knew well enough but I did miss him greatly.

The night before was honestly great. We cuddled and talked with him being Asexual and all. Sure I wanted the sex, but I could cuddle with that Angel all day long. Sex seemed like just a thing when I was with him. A thing I didn't need. I smiled to myself getting up to go make breakfast. I began to hum a tune to myself as I went to make a couple pancakes.

I looked out the window, it was a chilly November day. I walked to the heater turning it on. I walked back and flipped the pancake. One though ran through my mind though. When Cas would be back. He never told me. Some times it was a couple hours other times it was weeks. I use to think he would never return to me, but he always did. I loved his loyalty just about as much as I loved him. I let out a soft giggle at the thought putting my pancake on a plate turning to the fridge grabbing syrup. I turned on the radio, Hot Blooded was playing and I did a little dance before sitting down. I liked the up beat stuff, and honestly the slow stuff to when it came to song. I liked when Cas was willing to sway with me.

He wasn't a bad dancer if encouraged although he saw no point in doing it. I remembered when we first met. That day he saved my life in more than one way. Saved myself from that horrible suicide attempt and then kept me for his own. I always told everyone I didn't need to be loved or wanted. But once Cas showed me that, there was no going back... I smiled and took a bite of my pancake. I looked around before getting up and slipping on my slippers to keep my toes warm. I yawned once more. Honestly I was tired, but I had work.

One sad thing about angels, they don't really make money. so I support myself. I've managed so far but honestly I wish Castiel was able to help more. With where the world is at I understand more than anyone.

I finished off my meal before running to get dressed. A short black skirt and a blue blouse. I slipped on my glasses that made me look smart before heading toward the door. Then I heard an all to similar flapping sound. I turned quickly to see the Angel I loved. I ran to him wrapping my arms around him hugging him tight. No words were needed as he hugged back and kissed my head.

"I see I caught you in time..." He said as a faint smile appeared on his lips. I ran a hand through his hair and nodded.

"That you did." I hum kissing his lips. "I'll have to go soon." I say sadly. I get my Angel back then I have to go. Life wasn't on my side. I didn't let go of him though. I would rather be late than break the embrace so soon.

"I know," he said as I felt a hand go through my hair as I closed my eyes. "I'll ride with you." He offered and I only smiled more taking his hand and pulling him out while I grabbed my purse.

I glanced at him while I pulled him out. He had this weird expression on his face... it made my stomach turn ever so slightly. Was something wrong?

I ignored the feeling and got in on the driver seat. I looked at him as I recognized his fake smile.. I bit my lip I hated when he did that. I wanted to know what was wrong. However before I could speak he opened his mouth.

"You know I would never hurt you right?" His voice seemed lower than normal. The very statement made my stomach hurt. Why would he ask that. Of course I knew that, but it made me worry. "I love you. However... things..."

I stopped the car right as I was about out of the driveway. I put the car in park turning to him. "Baby what's going on?" My voice is a little horse as I'm getting scared.

We had to move a lot because different creatures would locate me and Cas didn't want me to get hurt. I hated moving and we had been here in the country for months... I felt safe but I would move if it meant Cas was happy.

"I'm... I am going to be gone awhile." Castiel said and looked out the window I knew he was avoiding eye contact. I gently grabbed his hand. I wouldn't ask. I didn't want to know why he would be gone. I just cared about one thing.

"Then when will you be back?" I can feel tears coming. I hate being alone... Cas made me feel safe and knowing he was going to be gone made my heart sink.

"Just a few months... no more than a year."

"A year!?" I breathed and tears popped out of my eyes showing how weak ideas without my Angel. He quickly unbuckled my seat bet and pulled me into his arms as my face hid into his chest. I couldn't last that long. I needed Castiel. He is what kept me going, kept me alive. "Please don't... not for that long..." I began to beg, crying into his chest.

He stroked my hair and kissed my head. "I'm sorry... I must, I'll be back, I promise." He said and held me close for about ten minutes. "Skip work today, I'll spend the rest of the day with you before I leave tonight." He said and it was at this moment I knew he wasn't joking. I was hoping maybe Dean got him to play a cruel joke but Castiel never really supported me skipping work. My heart sank more as I just nodded.

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