I fiddled with my fingers.
"That's Andy." I said, looking up at him. He cocked his head to the side. "He's on of my best friends and uh, he's not to happy with me." I elaborated. He nodded slowly.
"I have to say, neither am I, but there''s something else bothering him. You should talk to him later, just give him time." I nodded. Jason reads people to well for it to be natural, he's probably 100% right. He didn't say anything about what happened, I have a feeling we'll be talking about it later, when I get back to my house. He held my hand in both of his and traced the lines on my palms. My arms were far to exposed for me to be comfortable, but Jason just ran his fingers lightly over the scars, not saying a word. I haven't told him about them directly, so he was probably just finding out, but you never know with that kid. He could've known from the beginning.
"There's going to be a lot of people coming in that aren't to happy with me." I mumbled. He just nodded his head and continued playing with my hands. Reason 19245 why I like him. My family had already re-inhabited the room when Andy walked back in. He looked like hell and my heart sunk, knowing it was my fault. And god, poor hunter. He's the last person I wanted to find me. Andy was right behind him, according to hunter.He came to check on me and he saved me life for the second time. God i'm such a fuck up. Jason was still by my side and once again, Andy stayed by the door. I really didn't like this, he seemed really distant. I looked over at him and he held my gaze for a long minute, every single one of his walls up. I had no idea what was racing through his mind.
"Phoenix, are you listening to me?" My mom sighed. I finally turned my eyes away from his paralyzing blue eyes,
"Huh?" She clucked her tongue and rolled her eyes at me.
"I said, your Dad and I were considering maybe getting you some help." She said, a bit nervous.
"Are you fucking serious?" I groaned. "I'm not going to a damn shrink." My language was pissing off my mom. She pursed her lips.
"Phoenix, we can't just ignore what you did, what you've BEEN doing to yourself." Gee, thanks mom. Not everybody in this room needed to know that. My dad looked at my mom and Kyle looked at me. Oh fuck.
"Thanks mom, I appreciate that, really." I snapped sarcastically.
"What the hell are you talking about Jen?" My dad asked, furrowing his eyebrows. The air was suddenly really tense. Everybody was staring at me. I looked at Andy for help. He clenched his jaw, oh yeah. I promised him I wouldn't do it again. The shittiest person ever award goes to yours truly. I couldn't just get up and walk away from them. And I mean I am physically inable. The IV was attached to me along with a bunch of monitors.
"Nothing, we can talk about this later. " My mom said quietly, finally breaking the unbearable silence. I glanced back at Andy just in time to see him walk out the door. I closed my eyes and lolled my head back. God Damn it.
'Is she ok? Is that like a side affect or someth-" My mom said quickly.
"Just leave me alone."I said, cutting her off.
"Phoenix, I don't think it's a good idea to leave you by yourself-"
"Just please get the fuck out, please." I almost begged, squeezing my eyes shut. The room got quiet and I sighed, slowly opening my eyes. Everybody was gone and all I wanted to do was talk to Andy and tell him how sorry I was. If everybody was here, i'd probably have a mental break down. I sure as hell wouldn't be able to face Austin, Andy, James, Katrina, Tyler, Marcus, and everybody else. Fuck, i'm so dumb. After awhile Jason came back, telling me he had to go home.
"Bye."I sighed. He kissed my forehead and walked out. Sighh. My parents and my brothers left a hour after him. I don't know where the fuck Andy went. Nurses came to check on me every once in awhile but other than that I was alone, a sickening feeling creeped into my stomach. I was having way to much time to think. Somebody cleared their throat and I turned my head unwillingly. Oh god. Austin stood at the door, Andy behind him. I shrunk into my bed and looked down at my lap. They walked in and stood next to my bed wordlessly.
"You'e have to talk to us Phoenix, unless you want me to bring everybody in here. There all in the waiting room." Austin said quietly. I shook my head and cracked my knuckles.
".....I....I'm sorry."I said, looking up at them. 'That's all can really say. I know it was stupid. I wasn't thinking straight....."
"Would you not thinking straight have to do with the two empty vodka bottles in your room?" Andy asked. Austin elbowed him, but he was right. I bit my lip and nodded.
"We're not hear to yell at you."Austin sighed, I glanced at Andy. "We just wanted to make sure you were ok." Two very different people stood next to me, but I loved them both so much. "And just to warn you Marcus and Bradley are both really wound up."
"I just want to fucking sleep." I groaned. Austin gave me a tired half smile.
"I know kid." I just wanted to hug them both, because Andy still hadn't said another word. 'But, they really need to see you." I sighed and lolled my head back.
"K." Andy walked out to get the others and Austin kept his place next to me.
"We're talking later."
"I know." I said, looking over at him.
"I'm really glad you're ok kid." He said, rubbing his forehead.
"I'm sorry." I choked out.
"It's ok.......it's fine" He murmured. I heard my other family from down the hallway and a smile ghosted across my lips. They stormed in all at once.
"You little shit." Bradley huffed, running in and hugging me. "You fucking scared us." He said. Katrina pushed him out of the way and crawled in the bed with me. God I love these people. Marcus was pulling an Andy, standing back, his features set in stone. Jax and Tyler both crawled on top of Katrina and I. The rest of them pulled up chairs around my bed and talked to me, making me forget why I was in here.
