Give me sometime to forget the feeling. i am not letting you go. i cannot do that. it is only the mere feeling that i can give up because it is mine. it is something that i own. People say that i can forget you and the things that you and i only know but that is impossible. You became a part of me. You had a piece of my shared time. We had memories–the thing which i cannot change or undo. thus, it is only the feeling that I can let go. Maybe i am out of my mind because i am surrendering that good feeling but we both know that sometimes a good feeling can make you sad, so sad that it could almost hurt. Things are becoming uncertain. i always end up with questions that left unanwered. And i am running out of reasons to believe that i can still hold on to faith and to that hope that keeping me hanging from this feeling. i am losing my strength. i am losing my grip. i cannot ask you to hold me everytime my hand slipped away. I don’t have any right to make you stay. You’re not mine. And even if nobody owns you, i still have to let this feeling go. We both know that this would be very hard but this is the only thing that i can do now. Maybe it is close to impossible yet it can happen. I know it would take a lot of courage and time but I am taking my chances while i still can.Forgetting the feeling while keeping the hold into the person is not simple. I am not pushing you away. Just allow me to let the feelimg pass and fade. i am not giving you up, remember that. I am simply taking away something, something beautiful but… not for us.
