But Was It Worth It? //Ed Sheeran

10) I'm Sorry

Eds' P.O.V

So, Chloe's fine from what Megan said. Fuck. It's not like I want her to be sad, it's just that I'm pretty fucked up from it, and I'm the guy!

There was a knock at the door, that interrupted my thinking.

"Hello!?" I yelled to the door.

"Mate! Let me the fuck in!" Liam screamed back.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm coming." I replied.

"Well hurry up, ya old fart!" He yelled as he giggled.

I opened the door, and he was standing there with a cheeky grin. What have I got myself into?

"What are you looking so cheeky for, huh?" I smiled.

"What do you think Chloe feels like right now?" He quizzed.

"Well, fine. Megan said she was fine, and I have no reason not to believe her." I softly replied.

I didn't want to tell Liam that I was more sad now, than I was when we organized the whole game thing. Now that she's gone, I have nothing. The days seemed to drag on longer, and seemed darker. The nights are more lonely. And as corny as it sounds, my heart is emptier.

And we were friends before, and now I've lost both a lover and a friend. Actually, they sound like good lyrics.

Maybe I don't wanna loose a lover and a friend,
In one night,
If that's alright.

Sounds alright, I guess. Those few lyrics could turn into an alright song. But I don't know. I really miss her, and I know I fucked up, and I'm really sorry now. I should have never let her go.

Tears started to pour over my eyes. Only a small amount. But the more I thought about her, the more I started to cry.

"Woah, Ed. Are you okay?" Liam softly asked in a concerned tone.

I walked back to the nearest wall, leaned against it, slid down to a sit, and started crying even more.

"I don't know what to do anymore, Liam." I sobbed.

He gave me a sympathetic look, and sat down next to me. He put a comforting arm around my shoulders, and let out a sigh.

"It's okay, Ed. I'm still h-"

"No it's not okay!" I rudely interrupted. "I fucked up, okay? I made a stupid decision and I shouldn't have. Now she's gone. She's gone and she's never coming back. I'm lost without her. I need her." I sobbed.

Liam let out another sigh. "Look mate, if it makes it any better, Chloe's not much better either. If anything, she's actually worse." He informed me.

"At the ice-cream place." I started.

"You were there?" He asked.

I nodded. "Yeah. Was Chloe okay, or just tired. When Megan ordered I seen her and asked, but she said she was just tired and they had a big night."

He thought about it for a second. "Well, we did have a biggish night. Had a few beers and got wasted, but no. She wasn't tired. She was and probably still is, broken." He sighed.

That made me feel a bit better. Actually it didn't. It made me feel worse. I broke her. I made her feel that way. I'm a fucking arsehole. And I'm sorry.

Chloe's P.O.V

I never thought life could be so. . . Lonely. I never thought I could ever miss someone so much, either. I guess I was proved wrong. What sucks the most about this, is that I still love and care about someone, who couldn't care less about me. Well, at least that's what I thought.