Chapter 38
Recap:
We got into the cab and I told them where I wanted to go, and then we were off. The last thing I saw looking out the window was Justin staring after us, looking heartbroken. I felt this horrible feeling in my stomach and I knew exactly what it was; regret mixed with heartbreak.
**One year later**
I saw down on the couch late on a Saturday afternoon, turned on the TV, and put my bowl of popcorn on the table in front of me. Kaley was sitting in the armchair beside me, and Taylor was sitting next to me.
No, I didn’t get back together with Taylor, we had become better friends recently though. I was beginning to see a change in him, it was almost like he was a completely different person from when I was dating him, and it was a severe improvement.
It had been one year since I had seen or talked to Justin Bieber, and I was missing him like crazy. I was avoiding every celebrity news channel or website, avoiding Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, anything that might have any information about him. I didn’t want to see if he had moved on, I didn’t want to see what he looked like now, and I just wanted him out of my life. I just wanted a break from the pain and regret. Unfortunately, it’s extremely hard to do that when your boyfriend is a world famous celebrity.
I flicked through the channels slowly, trying to find something decent to watch. There wasn’t much on this late at night, so I would either have to find something lame or put a DVD in, and I was starting to think that the second option was the better one.
I stopped in my tracks when suddenly I caught a glimpse of something on the TV, something that made my stomach clench and induced instant, heart wrenching pain.
I saw Justin’s face on the TV for the first time in who knows how long, and I realized that I almost forgot how handsome he was.
“Welcome back to “E” News! So superstar Justin Bieber and his girlfriend, Jasmine Villegas, were seen today at Ihop, and sources say that they were seen cuddling and kissing, getting perhaps a little bit too close to be appropriate in public. They walked out together holding hands and laughing. Even though these young stars have only been dating for a couple of weeks, it looks like things are getting serious fast! Has Justin finally gotten over ex-girlfriend, Tina Stevenson?”
I was too shocked to change the channel. Taylor finally had to wrench the remote from my hand and change the channel before I could watch anymore, and I was too devastated to thank him. I didn’t even cry, but I was sure it would come soon. Right now it was pure shock.
So he was over me. I was out of his life, he got over it. I almost felt guilty for even thinking that he might still be sad about the breakup, because I knew I was. So he was back together with Jasmine, she finally got what she wanted. I knew that I probably should have moved on by now, but I just couldn’t bring myself to find a new guy. I was starting to wonder if I could ever date another guy.
It then dawned on me that I was no longer a part of Justin’s life, and I might never be again. That was when the tears started.
I cried so hard that it gave me a pounding headache, while Taylor and Kaley just stared, not sure what to do. I ran up to my room as fast as I possibly could and shoved my face into my pillow, then screamed as loud as I could into it. I was so frustrated with everything. I was frustrated that I broke up with him, that I went on tour with him; I was frustrated with Jasmine, with Justin, with myself, with the world. I was angry at Justin for moving on and never even texting me or anything, and most of all, I was angry at Scooter Braun for ever making Justin famous. I know that one was ridiculous, but it made me the angriest. If it wasn’t for his fame, none of this would have happened. I was confident that if he wasn’t famous, Justin and I would still be together. We were meant to be, I knew it.
