「 The Meaning of Dreams 」
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ 【 夢の意味 】
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Do you believe in the meaning of dreams? Do you think there is always a deeper definition, a radical explanation for such phenomena that make no sense? I have always wondered: what could they be? Why does my mind string together certain memories to make a horrifyingly mixed up timeline? Most of my dreams are frightening. When I close my eyes at night, I suppose I cannot help but recall my parents' murder, their mangled bodies made one, those scorching flames that rose to the heavens. I want to forget, I so badly want to forget. And yet, I can't escape it. The thoughts always haunt me, even in slumber. I am forced to relive that night, over and over again, only with each time I am thrown back into the past, it gets worse. My screams get louder, the flames get hotter, the already never-ending hallways get longer. Things that didn't really happen begin to occur, I am chased continuously, pursued by invisible monsters, evil hands grab out from the shadows at me as I run toward my mother and father. With each time I dream, the more I die. I can do nothing but live out my nightmare, and witness not only my parents' deaths, but MY death, night, after night, after night. And, somehow, I already know what I'll see upon finding them. I know where they are, but even in my head, I am unable to get there in time. That is the most painful thing of all. Again and again, I cannot save them. Although many think different, I wonder: how can dreams be meaningless? They know my darkest secrets and greatest fears, they are a terrifying product of my past. How can they be simple and docile when they constantly kill everything I care for the second they get the chance? - ☠
