Dear Friend (The Perks Of Being A Wallflower)

11/5/13

Dear friend,

Hey, sorry I haven't wrote to you in a while, there has been a lot going on.

I've been bad lately. I haven't slept, I haven't ate, I haven't walked/jog since the last time I wrote and I haven't been going out.

My attacks are also becoming worse, there used to be signs of when they came, but not anymore.

I also feel guilty and sad. I may be falling in love with two people. Drake and Brad. I haven't met brad in person yet. But we text all the time and something's he rings me. Well, used too.

But there's a problem. There always is a problem.

Rose is in love with him too. Brad and I went out before, as did he and rose.

Rose and I fell out ages ago about something stupid. But, he choose me over her and I said to rose that he picked her. I've lost contact with him ever since.

Rose still thinks he choose her. She doesn't know anything about it.

Brad has no idea why I suddenly stopped contacting him. He spams me every now and then with calls and texts, but I would never answer or reply.

I prefer Rose to be loved over me. She was/is my best friend after all.

I'm also in a band. We haven't thought of a name yet, but Danielle, Nicolette (Nicole for short), Rose and I are in it. We think we might even enter for Britain's Got Talent next year.

I feel as though I want to pass away, but I don't? If that makes sense. It's like I'm happy and sad at the same time. I don't know how or why. But I am. An that's all that matters, right?

Well, I have to go, it's 1:00 pm and I think I can hear my parents come upstairs, they know I don't sleep, but I pretend to, so they don't worry.

Love always,

Emma xx