Severed Connections

[Author's Note:  Each chapter will be fairly short. I have chapters one through three typed up, but want to see how good a response I get, and then maybe post a new chapter every week. I've never fnished a book before but want this one to be the exception.]

The world is a dull place when you lock inside you the part no one wants to see. When you deny your true nature, when you practically reject your soul, nothing makes sense anymore. Everything is meaningless because your core – your identity – is hidden.

I wish I were being dramatic about a breakup. I wish that my heart hurt because I loved someone that didn’t return my affection. But this isn’t the case. It’s never been for me. I’ve spent every day of my existence trying to come to terms with the truth of what I am. I’m not just a person. I don’t have one soul like the people that surround me daily. Since birth, something inside has stirred restlessly, this something that makes daily life feel like one big show.

Is there anyone out there trying to tame the animal inside? Anyone like me? Someone who understands? I want to, so badly, to tell someone everything. About the nights I’m kept awake by the roaring inside my head. About every time I ever dreamed of running through wilderness not as myself, but as an animal.

How could I ever put into words the connection I felt with what was unexplainable? How did anyone ever do it?

All I know is that I’m scared. But not of the wolf trapped inside me.

I’m scared I will never get out of this lie of normalcy.