It Started With A Follow| mgc•lrh

Chapter 9|What?

⚠TRIGGER WARNING⚠

*Michael's pov*
I wake up with something on top of me.

I open my eyes and groan quietly looking around.

I feel hot breath on my neck and tense up slightly before realizing it's just Luke.

I look next to my head and see our fingers still entangled and I smile widely.

"Michael?" The voice is unfamiliar.

I look at the door "yeah?" Luke's mum comes into view as she walks closer "is he okay?"

I nod rubbing his back "yeah, he's okay" She strokes his hair "thank you, for being here with him, he hasn't slept in a while"

I look up at her "I'm going to be here a lot then" He groans quietly and buries his face deeper in my neck "stop talking m' sleeping" I chuckle quietly and scratch his back "sorry lovely"

I kiss his temple softly and wrap my arms around him "you can go back to sleep princess" He hums softly and falls back asleep quickly.

I look at his mum "love could you do me a favor and push play on the movie? I'm not very tired but I don't wanna disturb him at all" I whisper

She nods and walks over to the tv turning the movie on.

I smile gratefully and she walks out.

Luke starts to move around whimpering in his sleep. I frown and shake him lightly "princess come on wake up"

He jerks awake panting hard.

I rub his back and sing softly in his ear hoping it calms him down

After a while he finally calms down, just laying motionlessly on top of me, breathing slowly.

"Michael?" His voice sounds strained "yeah baby?"

He sits up and looks down at me "I want you to take my virginity"

*Luke's pov*

"harder" I growl in his ear scratching down his back.

A low moan sounds throughout the room.

His face comes into view and I freeze "g-get off of me" I try to push him off

"come on baby you don't wanna finish?" He chuckles "thought you were enjoying it"

I jerk awake panting and crying silently.

A familiar scent washes over me and his voice rings throughout the room.

"Michael?" i force out "yeah baby?"

I smile lightly, loving when he calls me that

I sit up and look at him "I want you to take my virginity"

He looks at me, a confused look on his face "What?"

"I want you-" His hand covers my mouth "no I heard you I just..I can't Luke. That should be saved for the man you really love" I frown and push his hand away "but I do love you Michael"

He shakes his head "no Luke, you love the idea of me. I'm not who you think I am"

I feel tears sting my eyes and I get off of him quickly. I run out of my room and to my bathroom completely breaking down.

I hear someone knocking on the door "Luke, baby I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that come talk to me" I ignore him and open the bottom right drawer under my sink.

⚠SELF HARMERS IF IT MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE PLEASE STOP READING HERE I DON'T WANT TO PROVOKE ANYONE IN ANY WAY⚠

I grab my blade and sit in the bathtub staring at it.

I faintly hear Michael pounding on the door and begging me to come out and let him help me.

But he can't help me

no one can.

No one understands.

No one loves me enough to try and understand.

No one gets it and I don't want them to.

I don't want anyone to understand the pain I go through.

I don't want anyone to hear the voices.

Before I can think twice about it I raise my wrist and drag the blade over my skin

one
two
three
four

Normally I would stop, I would clean up my wrist then go back to my room and cry myself to sleep.

But now, I can't find it in myself to stop

I keep feeling the pinch

I keep going deeper

After almost 10 deep open wounds I finally stop myself.

I drop the blade and an earthshattering sob leaves my mouth.

⚠IT'S SAFE TO READ NOW⚠

I hear the door knob jiggle and a soft voice sounds through the door "hey baby brother you alright?"

I stand up and stumble over to the door opening it "J-jack-" He wraps his arms around me and pulls me against him "I know"

I cry against him, shaking all over.

A gentle hand rests on my forearm "luke let's get these cleaned up yeah?" His voice is even more gentle in my ear and I can't help but lean against him.

Jack's arm goes around my waist as he helps hold me up. A cold wet washcloth dabs around my wrist.

Soft lips meet my temple and before I can protest I'm being lifted and carried back to my room.

My mum comes in my room with an ace bandage and band aids "I wasn't sure which would be easier so I brought both" She sits next to whoever is holding me and looks at my wrist "Luke this is getting bad" She whispers.

I look at her tiredly "I'm sorry mum" I whisper.

She looks at me sadly "it's okay love" She wraps the ace bandage around my wrist and kisses my forehead "get some rest love" I nod and curl up against who I assume is Michael.

*Michael's pov*
I watch Luke curl up against Jack and my heart breaks. I caused this, this is all my fault.

How can I live with myself knowing I hurt my princess?

♡
NO, I AM NOT PROMOTING SELF HARM
IF YOU SELF HARM PLEASE GET HELP
FOR ME
FOR YOUR FAMILY
FOR YOUR FRIENDS
I PROMISE YOU, THAT BLADE OR LIGHTER ISN'T WORTH IT.
YOU ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOU KNOW.
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